Okay so I know i have not posted in a while. I'm 16 just finished high school and i could really use some help...
Recently i got a job. And there is this really pretty girl who I've met a few times. My manager told me that she came to her right after i left from work one day to say how "I'm so nice!" Could this mean that she likes me?
I haven't gotten a shift with her yet but i will maybe even by next week. I'm so nervous because first i just want to be friends and if it stays at friends if we could even possibly be friends i would be so happy.
I don't think there is anyway in hell i could come out and even possibly communicate part of my feelings for her. But i know they're strong.
Unlike what my name says I'm not the prettiest girl if i gave all of me to her i don't think i could be good enough.
Another thing i realized that i'm bisexual. And that is so scary to me. Because i feel like it is so wrong. Because i am after all a Christian.
I want to be closer to this girl... please help me anybody...

Also i am such a freak...
I spent 4 weeks in the hospital after being sent to the emergency room. If i hadn't gone there i would have died apparently. I was diagnosed as having anxiety, depression, and paranoia. I could also be bipolar.
In addition i was adopted from an abusive alcoholic father who i never really knew. Started self-harming for nearly a year because i hated myself. Had an online relationship with a 24 year old guy who said he was in love with me and wanted to marry me which my parents found out the same time i had my mental breakdown. And was stalked by a transgender male to female who said so many perverted things to me (online). I feel so messed up sometimes. Now it turns out i'm bisexual too. I have so many secrets. I feel like a mess.
Oh and i'm also biracial and have to see a therapist because of my suicidal thoughts and psycharitrists and am on 4 different meds. I even tried to runaway before.

[Travelinglady]

You could try being friends and get an idea of whether she likes you back. I just have to avoid women I am attracted to, since I am a Christian, also, though.

If you want, then check in with some ladies in the social group about such matters to see how they handle someone they are attracted to, but don't know their orientation.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. Okay?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm happy to see you here again. You're still young and you have time to discover your sexual orientation. Try to befriend this girl and see how it goes. Keep in mind she might not share your sexual orientation...

[Miku134]

This is so adorable and the exact thing has happened to me a couple of times throughout life (I'm 27 and bi) but I always thought "if we can just be friends, that would be enough!" However when you get closer and closer to them, it REALLY hurts when they get a boyfriend, and even the nicest person struggles to cope. However the good news (for us) is that not a single one of those couples lasted at that age, and they have all gone through multiple partners since - so maybe a friendship is actually stronger, in some cases?

I'd say strive to be friends with her, even if you are awkward and shy (I sure as hell was) sometimes that makes you stand out and they actually like you more for it. However, remember you are young. Any relationships stronger than friendships at your age are unlikely to last. So keep it as friends and try not to let any of her romantic relationships bother or upset you too much.

You could become a very meaningful person in her life, even if not a romantic partner. A lot of people your age however are not fully accepting about same-sex relationships, so maybe don't bring it up just yet, enjoy your time with this girl, make a positive impact on her life by being a good person, and who knows what could happen in the distant future?

To be honest I'm not sure if she has a boyfriend. I think she could easily get one but doesn't want one at least right now if that makes sense.

I don't think I want it to be romantic because of the reason that someone would find out and I don't think I could live with myself then. Plus I feel like she deserves someone way better than me.

(((((NotJustAPrettyGirl)))))

[Carmina]

Don't be ashamed to love someone regardless of what sex/gender they are - love is love - no shame in being bi/pan either

She may not feel the same way but that is true of every prospective relationship - you either take the risk or don't

Originally Posted by Carmina

Don't be ashamed to love someone regardless of what sex/gender they are - love is love - no shame in being bi/pan either

This.

And i finally told my therapist im bi.

[~Christina]

Are you feeling better after talking about it ?

[Talthybius]

Don't let religious dogma about sexuality affect you. People hating themselves because of what 'their' religion has to say about their sexuality, that is one of the saddest things.

[Macd123]

You’re too hard on yourself - I’m sure you have many outstanding qualities. Feel free to use them all 🙏👍