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Jun 06, 2018, 06:28 AM
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26 yrs old and on my 2nd marriage. 1st marriage was rocky from day 1. I was young and dumb for the most part. I believed in marriage so much that I put myself through hell battling. I believe if someone is genuinely 100% inlove and devoted to yu would never do anything to hurt yu or jepordize yur relationship. I was lied to on a daily basis, I was cheated on any chance he got, I was physically and mentally abused. But I choose to stay in hopes things would change and that I served purpose by staying. I was wrong !!! 3 yrs wasted and it broke me down to no return. I am now with the person I believe to be my soulmate, recently married. Again it has its ups and downs. but I am at the point where I don't know what's real or what's not after all the pain I've acquired in past relationships. My sense of judgment is off. I obsess over things I can't control and that makes me feel even worse. I don't wanna be lied to, cheated on, or completely defeated as a person. I've always been told to follow my heart but that doesn't always make anything better. Especially when your mind tells you something different. My heart tells me to stay and work through it and my mind tells me to runaway. I want nothing more than my marriage and my family but still something is missing. I'm not happy when I know I should be happy. what's my problem ? I never feel good enough no matter who I am with or who I am around.
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 MickeyCheeky, ShadowGX, Teddy Bear
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Jun 06, 2018, 07:03 AM
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 Do you go to therapy? It seems like those years of abuse have left some pretty heavy scars.
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Jun 06, 2018, 07:10 AM
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Just from the timeline you've presented and your age, I wonder if you rush too fast into these relationships without having sufficient time to know the person you are marrying/have married?
I agree with MickeyCheeky, therapy would probably help if you were in an abusive relationship. Seesaw
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