Hi Mickey and Bill. Thank you for your hugs and acknowledgement.

I had it up for like 3 hrs, and then felt self conscious and took it down. Mickey, yes, I am ok. Bill I think you saw the original post, so thank you for the hugs. I talked to my therapist about this and she was VERY validating and helpful, and I don't feel I need to apologize to my brother anymore. Even if (or, WHEN) he brings it up again. I will say something kind and validating, to BOTH of us. But I will not apologize anymore. He refuses to get counseling for all he feels he has experienced in childhood, sans myself as well, and he blames everyone but himself for his current life feelings and situation. and I have apologized enough. She gave me some positive and helpful things to think about, too.