Sad reality.. we may not last forever?

If she asked then I was wrong and I misunderstood, but there was no need to attack and accuse me of being nasty and mean when there was zero nastiness on my part. I’m bowing out of this thread.

Update:

Not sure if anyone is still reading this. I feel deep in my heart that I am now at the beginning of the end.

We had a long talk. He said he didn't want kids because he once planned all that with his exwife and it didn't work out.. also ( this is ridiculous) he is afraid that I will cheat on him while he's doing shift work ( just like his ex wife did) then i will take the kids and he'll end up having to pay me money. He said he would definitely kill himself then. He was thinking about suicide before he met me.
He doesn't trust me and it hurts to think he is judging me based on what his ex wife did. I told him that and lots of othe things I've been wanting to say.. I told him I wanted kids, that I wouldn't do that to him and I feel he's judging me unfairly, also, that I don't think he has truely moved on from his past ( even though he keeps saying he has) Marriage is a definite no for him. I told him honestly that maybe I wasn't the best person for him to date.. there are people out there who would feel the same as him.

then he said 'let's travel together and see how we feel in a couple of years when he's earned some money'.
My thoughts are why?
He's already told me what he thinks. Can i wait and hope he changes his mind? But do people really change their mind later on when they are so sure?.
I told him "but are you really gonna wake up one day and decide out of knowhere that you want kids.. you have been around kids already and you know what they're like?". And he seemed to sort of agree but wanted to 'wait and see.

I think he was trying to stall the conversation.
I'm already resenting him just for the fact he doesn't trust me and thinking I'm like his exwife . He's always said he's 'starting over' with me. But I told him he hasn't moved on. I dont think he has.

Now we are avoiding each other lol. I do love him nd all this really hurts. Our lease is up in 2months. Maybe we should just part ways then

I am sorry you are hurting but you better off parting ways. Start looking for new living arrangements where you can move in two months. You’ll find plenty of men wanting marriage and children when you are ready. Don’t settle. And please do pursue what you want. Don’t let people with bad marriage experience discourage you from wanting a family. Hugs

I feel a bit numb. I wasn't quite ready to put my foot down today but i can already feel myself suppressing it and numbing the emotional pain. I have to keep reminding myself what I truely want. I suppose I'll wait until I can suppress it no more.. and then I guess I'll break it off

I agree with divine that you should start to look for other living arrangements & stay focused on what you want for your future.

Honestly it sounds like he’s stringing you along. Maybe he doesn’t wanto be alone & have to settle his past, alone. This is not fair for you & what you would like.
Maybe find a place now & sign a lease. Then you burn your boat, so to speak. You’re forcing yourself to make the move even if he tries to win you back by pulling on your heartstrings.
Wish you all the best & you really find what you’re looking for. People change, every day. This will always be a constant.