[MtnTime2896]

I owe you nothing. So why do I feel like I do? I didn't fail you. So why do I feel like I did? I have no loyalty to you any more. So why do I feel guilty with someone else?

Why are you still on my mind when I'm never on yours? Why do I want to try when I know I'll get hurt? Am I addicted to you... or self punishment?

[Bill3]

[MickeyCheeky]

It's hard to move on. I hope you'll be able to do it soon.

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I owe you nothing. So why do I feel like I do? I didn't fail you. So why do I feel like I did? I have no loyalty to you any more. So why do I feel guilty with someone else?

Why are you still on my mind when I'm never on yours? Why do I want to try when I know I'll get hurt? Am I addicted to you... or self punishment?

Since you are no longer with him but were with him for a long time, you may stilll be on his mind. I don't know. I do know that when I found my husband, I avoided and stopped writing everyone I had had romantic involvements with but sometimes thought about the first boy I fell for. Were you his first serious girlfriend? If you were, that is a very special thing and you may have a subtle influence on his relationships with women for the rest of his life. I bet you effected him in many positive ways that will always be a part of him.....

Só leigheas I think your mind has a tendency to ruminate on all kinds of things including many negative things and many past traumas. I know you are in a lot of pain. Keep working with your psych doctor and therapist. Keep trying to live in the present moment rather than thinking about the past. I know this is a tall order. Lots of hugs to you. You are a special person. I can't imagine him not still loving you in some way even though he has decided to move on.