[Curious1437]

My relationship is complicated. My mom died in Oct. My dad is living in Austin with my sister. Everything changed so fast. I was never close to my parents. They were abusive emotionally and physically. I lost my childhood home and mom in just a few months, while also gaining my own place to live with government assistance. Everything is too much. My parents only cared about themselves. I never learned what it's like to be an adult or how to deal with literally anything. I have schizoaffective disorder and I'm on SSI and housing. I don't have anyone but my boyfriend. But I feel like a burden more each day that passes. He helps when he can, but I feel bad because there's so much more that needs done. I don't know how to talk. I try to start but then get scared and stop talking not long after.

What do you do if your thoughts are trapped inside of you and you can't figure out how to let them out? I have a therapist but that's barely scratching the surface.

[healingme4me]

Is your bf willing to read what you write? What you just wrote seems a good start, if writing is a means of communication for you when speaking isn't.

[Blogwriter]

Hi Curious,

Do you belong to a support group? The National Alliance for the Mentally Ill (NAMI) might help you find one. You might be able to make some friends that way.

[Bill3]

You could practice expressing yourself by keeping a journal.