why does nobody care about me

I really don´t understand.
I had a friend. He said he cared about me and would always answer the phone and never throw me away. It had been 10 years since anybody talked to me, when he called, I thought: this life is bareable after all. But I fell in love with him and then he started to ignore me, told me I am scary and mental and I haven´t talked to anyone heart to heart for 8 months again. Like, it´s all just hello, goodbye level... When I go out, people ignore me like I am not there. I don´t look like a monster I think. I also try to be generous and kind. But I don´t have a person to trust. Nobody ever asks me how I am, if I am doing all right, if I ate anything. Nobody ever calls EVER or invites me out to places. when I call someone, the phone rings and rings and people just dont answer and I never hurt them in any way, I don´t understand. out of 140 times, shouldnt somebody answer? . I am just so emotionally drained, so exhausted, out of strength, I just want a hug, but my last hug... was 6 years ago.... who even am I? Do I exist? am I invisible? I really suspect I might be a ghost but ghosts don´t draw pictures. "friends". all that my friends do is ask for favor after favor without pay, I do everything but I have no more food at home.
I miss my real friend, my brother my soulmate. I am really sorry I fell in love I will push it down... I just want someone to trust... I am so alone in this world. it´s too hard to bare. I have absolutely nobody to talk to.
is it my fault? just what did I do? I don´t understand. Being born? Is that it, my existence is bad? Do I not have the right to have just 1 friend? I am thinking of disappearing. I just can´t take it any more. I am sorry, it wasn´t my choice to exist. how long do I need to stay here when nobody loves me and nobody wants to be my friend? I just want to cry it all out but there isnt anyone. I can spill my heart to. what must I do... what must I do then, to have 1 friend in this world? is it not enough to help everyone every day for free... what else must I do to be loved even a little bit? cant somebody just say thank you, or that it´s ok for me to exist...

You were put here on this earth for a reason. What is it, you may never know. But there is a reason...so please dont do anything to harm yourself. I know how you feel, as no one cares about me either. I have thought the same things...am I a ghost? Is this real or a dream? Am I looking at myself from above (or below)?

At least your friend has told you how he felt. I know it sucks and it hurts, but now you know. Would it be better that he strings you along and uses you and treat you like crap? You deserve better than that. You should try to move on. Do something for you. What do you like and enjoy? Do you have a hobby?

Sorry you're going through this.

I totally understand what you're saying in your post, I've often wondered the same about myself.

Stay strong, things will be ok

Hello me251.

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Please be kind & generous to yourself me251, and welcome to P.C

Hi me251 I'm sorry you feel so lonely. I hope you will make friends on this site.

loneliness is the worst. I am sorry you are experiencing it.

I have said it numerous times, when we are having social difficulties sometimes it does us just as well to look without as it does within. Consider those people who we see as being successful socially. Is there anything you can observe that makes them so successful? Recognizing these characteristics and behaviours is it possible to role model some of them to your own benefit? Learn too from observing behaviours from those that put you off. Remember that effective non verbal communication is paramount to successful socialization.

No body cares about me either. I don't say that in a "poor me" way. I just know it in my bones.