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Apr 22, 2020, 07:18 AM
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3 years ago I met a man who showed me I could love someone. I had never felt that before. My love wasn't just right for him, my care was never enough and my behavior sent him packing 4 days ago. Leaving me in the world alone and shattered. I never cared about being alone before, I knew nothing different. I have Borderline Personality Disorder and I behaved in such a manner only to protect myself as well as too force him to stay with me. It didn't work. I know what he says when telling me I'm wicked and evil but I couldn't stop. I loved how I knew and that was with verbal lashings and character bashings. I was neglected and hated as a baby into my adult years I never had anyone to show me what was real. He always said he was real with me and I was too crazy to believe. He abandoned me and so will the next human I fall in with. I wish him to call me today and hold me as he used too, but I'm afraid I just had said such ill things this time he will always be afraid of me. I'm lost out here with nobody and my soul aches to think ill go another 29 years where no one cares about me.
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 Bill3, MsLady
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Apr 22, 2020, 09:41 AM
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Apr 23, 2020, 01:57 AM
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