Painful poem

Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong?
To be held in your embrace
To greet you in the morning
But I see your bitter face
Grousing and complaining
I sleep alone everyday

Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong?
To be affectionate, to go places
To enjoy a day and be happy
But as i sit across from you
All you ever do is complain

Was i a fool?
Did i get it wrong?
To share without judgment
To freely enjoy without restriction
Am i to hide what i watch?
Things i watched, you lambaste

Was i a fool?
Did i get it wrong?
To receive a text from you
Affection or plans for tonight
Was that just a lie?
Why must your texts be complaints
I shouldn't get off work for you

Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong?
Sometimes we make mistakes
We can always fix it
Was I supposed to be belittled?
I'm sorry I forgot the food
I'm sorry I didn't understand

Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong?
I know relationships aren't perfect
I know we might get mad
But must it be daily?
Does my feelings matter?
Stop hurting me!

Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong?
How was work?
Can we cuddle?
All I do is work all day
I do everything for you, but it's not enough.

Was I a fool?
Did I get it wrong?
Sunny days and rainy days
We can enjoy life to the fullest
But you are horrible!
You hit me, shove me, kick me, yell at me and manipulated me!
We're through, we're divorced.

I was a fool
i did get it wrong.

All I wanted was to be loved.
Now it's over, but the wounds are fresh.
Is there someone out there who share my love?
Should I rebuild my shell and hide away?
I lie here crying as I write this.

(Yes, just tonight I had to evict my husband, ex husband. I reread my poem and sobbed so hard. This is painful. Part of me loved him a d wanted what's best. But part of me knew the abuse would continue. I bet some feel this way too. I feel like dying)