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So you are indeed speaking to people who have been at the hands of others who tried to kill them, and yet still believe that calling people toxic is a label. __________________ What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... Last edited by FooZe; May 22, 2021 at 02:01 PM.. Reason: Administrative edit to bring within guidelines |
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The sad thing in my case is that I can't even use this "label" to vent pain or even anger. How can you vent pain at all? I find that releasing anger in whatever ways doesn't remove a lot of the pain. Only a part of the pain was removed by anger and rage for me. Some of it was removed by reworking the memories, by understanding what even happened, how it happened, what these people really were doing, all the cold hard reality, and how I even got into these situations and relationships in the first place. That helped remove some more pain. All that enabled me to actually live the emotions I could not live on the spot originally, and that converted some more of the pain. And me finding positives afterwards also helped remove some more. A lot of the pain was really hard to remove overall, in the above ways, it took time, a lot of time, several years, and I still have some of it left. It's all affected me on a visceral, biological, chemical level. In several ways, not just by giving me lots of pain that took so long to drain. A lot of damage was caused overall. Quote:
There are objective behaviours, such as killing a person, that is plenty objective too. It's not just you thinking something that really says something about yourself. It's an actual event and action. Quote:
Agreed. Except, unfortunately, most of society doesn't really understand the type of damage caused, especially PTSD/cPTSD. Quote:
That therapist sounds good. My last therapist tried to shut down everything that could mean intense emotion. Quote:
I agree. I find hate very draining. I only like "clean anger" if you get what I mean. It's the kind of anger you mention here (i.e. useful for doing things). You mentioned dark triad..... I'm thinking that toxic stuff often originates from pervasive hate too. Not all of it, but sometimes yes. Quote:
This reminds me of one of the toxic people I had in my life. I also don't know how to grieve, or any of that. And yes, hate is too draining and I don't like it. I'm okay with just distance. Distance both internally and externally. No Contact. Quote:
Yes. I find it very important to be able to describe destructive behaviours in an accurate way. By going beyond just saying it's toxic - that category is good to call your attention to how it's important to deal with the issue, but you need to clarify further as to what behavioural and emotional patterns are going on. Quote:
I figured that one out for myself. I used to ignore negatives in people and repressed many of my own negative feelings too (along with too many positives too tbh). That was my problem mainly. When I was 18 was when I started to ignore the negatives to survive a difficult childhood and the positives just went underground together with the negatives. I never recovered from that for a long time and I lost much of my "compass" about people. And then I was also temporarily isolated (long story) and that made it worse, that made me more easily exposed to these manipulative and toxic people. So basically those two things. Been hard work reversing them. Been working on these problems for almost a full decade now. As part of it, the toxic people stuff too. I've developed pretty good antennaes to sense the bad, overly negative and manipulative things. cPTSD gave me hypersensitive antennaes that sensed even the smallest negative things that I blocked out before (since age 18) and I had to tone down the sensitivity by adding the rational framework for the emotions and behaviours. This rational framework also enables me to set up boundaries asap if I detect problems. Keeping away from dangerous people and from many other negative people too. I feel so much better this way. I learned so many useful things that have already helped me in many ways. I've accepted much more of the bad side in people and in life. I've accepted the existence of these things. It's been very hard work. |
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I think I won't post more about my experience with toxic people. The one thing I personally find important to say is:
@AzulOscuro I understand what you are saying here and I do agree that such a phenomenon exists, like I said before. This is actually why I do believe that trauma processing is supposed to surpass the phase of simplifying people into negative labels. I've got personal experience with such processing and so I thought mentioning this issue is maybe useful or helpful for this thread's topic. If someone doesn't process their trauma, then it could look like what you described about labelling and simplifying and I've seen that before. On the other hand, I think that identifying actually pervasive and damaging behaviour patterns - carefully and in a fair, unbiased and accurate way - helps stop us keep blaming ourselves and this contributes to healing. Without blowing it out of proportion either, and without trying to label everyone as toxic or as abusive, etc etc. And because of this, I think that for your thread's topic it could be a valid and interesting question about how we differentiate between these two things. 1) There is the issue that you pointed out about how some people just label others too fast, which is extra sad when sometimes people feel like they have to do this to feel safe because of unprocessed trauma. (Bonus issue: 1b) Sometimes people may do quick labelling without being traumatised too) 2) And then there is the issue that traumatised people do experience real damage and where it actually helps such people heal if they stop blaming themselves, and instead name damaging behaviour as actually damaging, without putting blame and labels too fast on innocent people either. Without oversimplifying labels. How do we make the distinction? How do we move past oversimplifying and move past seeing everything as toxic or abusive even when it's not? I feel like this is an important question and can be helpful to many people when this type of topic comes up. It is a complex question so I can't answer it in detail in a short post. After trauma, in my experience, it requires lots of processing and learning and re-learning to recognise what is a pervasive pattern or an occasional behaviour, what is too extreme and what is just a mistake or a fleeting little conflict. Only much learning can help us avoid oversimplifying things. I hope this thought helps someone, I don't know if I can add more. It's still a hard topic for me in general. |
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#104
Wow, well I just had an experience that I won't get into details about, however, it was most certainly wreaking of toxic/unhealthy elements for myself having to do with people who don't know me whatsoever - literally strangers on the street.
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Yes, there must be a search for the truth, for the objectively. Because many times, we put out the blame outside. We can’t carry with more disappointment, we have already enough damage. I do understand it. Also, the world we are living in is not very pleasant. There are so many spaces for prioritising the economical profits, superficial stuff and appearances, void feelings stuff that it’s not easy. But, most of people are like us, only they find themselves immersed in this spiral of insanity. There’s nothing more beautiful and releasing than trying to understand the other person, be faithful and fair, accept them as they are. __________________ Social Anxiety and Depression. Cluster C traits. Trying to improve my English. My apologies for errors and mistakes in advance. Mankind is complex: Make deserts blossom and lakes die. ( GIL SCOTT-HERSON) |
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My two cents.
The first time I heard the word 'toxic' as applied to relationships instead of chemicals was when Oprah pushed it out into the mainstream. At the time, I didn't hear it applied to people though perhaps it was, only relationships. So I've never used the term in regard to people. If someone is unhealthy for me, I remove them from my life. I also want to point out that there are extremely dangerous people that no label can accurately describe. These are the ones who everyone says is just the nicest, most wonderful person who would never hurt anyone. Behind closed doors the mask comes off and the monster is revealed to their chosen victim. My own mother is the most violent person I've ever had the misfortune of knowing. It has taken decades of meds and therapy, years of EMDR sessions, and multiple trips IP. I don't know, nor do I care why she is the way she is. The fact is, violence is always a choice. For what it's worth, I don't hate her. Like love, hate requires passion. I'm just indifferent. I don't see nor communicate in any way with her and she being elderly now, I won't be attending her funeral. __________________ You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. ~ Robin Williams Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? ~ Pink Floyd |
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#108
These people are very few. This is what I want to stress on this thread.
I’m trying to put the stress on what some people seem to find as an excuse to put the responsibility out there, looking for culprit or targets. It doesn’t occur. Before targeting somebody, you have to look at yourself first. To see what’s going on there. This is my motive in this thread. __________________ Social Anxiety and Depression. Cluster C traits. Trying to improve my English. My apologies for errors and mistakes in advance. Mankind is complex: Make deserts blossom and lakes die. ( GIL SCOTT-HERSON) |
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I don't know if people generally look for targets or culprits. Sure, some people like to blame others for everything and many people project their own issues onto others. This is a sub-set of our society that does this. Like an abuser may say that their victim is the abuser, when it's the other way around. I don't know if people who use the word toxic are necessarily doing this to look for culprits or targets. Bullies and abusers deliberately target certain people, yes. But I have found in my travels in life that toxic is generally used to describe something that is unhealthy.
Generally speaking, and in my experience there are indeed people who create unhealthy relationship dynamics - people who themselves are not healthy-minded or healthy emotionally. This does create what is often referred to as a toxic relationship. To me, toxic simply means unhealthy, and there are certainly many emotionally and mentally unhealthy people in the world. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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The thing about putting the blame out is not an exception from abusers. We, all, since little kids have this instinct of manipulating or get rid of the compromising situations. Only, some people overcome this self-defence mechanism and change it for another more suitable with social benefits.
It’s up to us to get rid of our primary instincts and use our rational brain not only to overcome our primary instincts but the ones dictated by our social needs instincts as well. __________________ Social Anxiety and Depression. Cluster C traits. Trying to improve my English. My apologies for errors and mistakes in advance. Mankind is complex: Make deserts blossom and lakes die. ( GIL SCOTT-HERSON) |
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So are you saying that generally speaking, people tend to project blame onto others, including claiming that others are toxic? I agree that many people in society project blame - yes. But in terms of the use of the word toxic, I don't find that to be the case. In my experience, when it's been used, it has been used to accurately describe an unhealthy situation.
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I agree with this of an unhealthy situation since it never put the spot on anybody in particular but on the concurrence. __________________ Social Anxiety and Depression. Cluster C traits. Trying to improve my English. My apologies for errors and mistakes in advance. Mankind is complex: Make deserts blossom and lakes die. ( GIL SCOTT-HERSON) |
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I guess I am confused. Are you protesting the use of the word "toxic" to describe someone else's behavior that is unhealthy? Meaning, are you in general disagreement that people should not call other people's behavior as toxic or unhealthy? And that people should look in the mirror first before labelling someone else's behavior as toxic? I guess I don't really get where you're coming from. I find many people's behavior to be toxic for me - meaning, I become unhealthy-minded being around the person, and therefore, I choose not to be around people who are emotionally unhealthy for me, and I choose not to engage with people whose behavior negatively impacts my mental health or mental and emotional well being. I had one friend that I had to sever the friendship with because she definitely was toxic/unhealthy for my mental health. She dragged me down instead of lifted me up. To me, toxic means being around a person who feels like poison to your soul and spirit.
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This makes me think of one more thing. So, you mention that only very few people are truly toxic like that. And then somehow I thought of this question: What if someone was not toxic / doing toxic things originally but then they somehow change? Would this be really rare too...if it's rare for people to be truly toxic, it must be a rare thing also to see someone change into that? I would imagine that that is really hard stuff to process. That is, if that can actually happen. I don't know if anyone here has seen it happen. (I won't go into the details about my experiences though, this question is more general.) |
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That is another issue I was thinking of. Poison, that is a strong word but I think you did find a good alternative wording to define what is toxic. Actually, I think "toxic" specifically refers to the effect exerted on you (as the subject). It doesn't even really say anything specific about the other person's personality, instead what it focuses on is the effect of the behaviour/whatever the person does/whatever's going on in the relationship. It points out how it *affects* you. In contrast, to me words like "abuse" point out the action itself. But that's maybe just my own personal view/interpretation of these words. So this is the same you are describing, I think. And I do find that I have to avoid such stuff even more while dealing with trauma and depression. Because I take longer to clean it out than I used to, so that is why I have to pay so much attention to avoid all that for now. |
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What she is talking about are the real special snowflakes that run around accusing every other person of being toxic or a bully or an abuser and they take no responsibility for themselves. Funny how everyone them around is a bully, an abuser or toxic when the common denominator is them. But they go on pointing at everyone but themselves. A good long look in the mirror is what they need
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The fact of the matter is, there are plenty of abusers and bullies in this world. The world is full of them. Many work environments are described as "toxic" because of bullies and negative behavior. Many relationships fall apart because of abuse. This world is rampant with abuse and bullying. When an environment or a person effect one's mental health negatively, it is typically described as "toxic", which to me, as I said above, simply equates to being poisonous to your spirit and soul. The OP said she is referring to just a few. I don't think it's the norm for many people to run around calling everyone else toxic, a bully or an abuser when it's them who has the problem. I'm 50 years old, and I've never run across such a person in my life, which doesn't mean they don't exist. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes Last edited by Have Hope; Jun 07, 2021 at 07:00 AM.. |
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The word "toxic" when it comes to labeling people no longer has any meaning. The word "narcissist" is also being overused into oblivion.
One thing I know is if you repeatedly have these people who take advantage of you (whom you label "toxic"), then there is something about YOU that attracts them to you. If you are 80 and have had maybe a couple of people in your life like that, okay, that is chance. But when you have a series of people you describe as "toxic" in your life, whether they're friends, family or relationships, then you need to do some digging into YOU to keep that element out by learning how to identify and take action to keep them out of your life. Throwing names/labels at people does nothing to solve the root problem. People cannot treat you badly unless you let them. They can't abuse you unless you let them. They can't take advantage of you unless you let them. When you are healthy, you don't attract these people and should one slip past the boundaries by being a little less obvious, you identify and remove them from your life much earlier. Just calling people toxic or narcissistic without you taking responsibility for how they got past your healthy boundaries to treat you badly or abuse you is a victim type of position. Get healthy and these people can't hurt you. |
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I have been a victim of many abusers and toxic types of people including bullies. I am an extremely nice person to a fault. For most of my life, I have had a people pleasing nature and am very open and friendly, which has invited abusers and bullies to take advantage of my good nature and of my good heart. And I have been far too nice to most people and to many who don't deserve it, which has allowed me to be taken advantage of or abused But to sound blaming towards people who often fall victim to abusers and to toxic types of people such as bullies in my opinion is just plain wrong. Get healthy and people won't abuse you. I agree with this to an extent, and I am personally working on that in my own life. But your tone sounds very negative towards those who have bean abused and bullied repeatedly. As though it's their own fault. And that I disagree with. Again, there are toxic people everywhere. And the nicer people tend to be the victims of toxic people the most, and those who were abused in their childhoods, such as myself. But now, as a result, I am not as nice, open or friendly and I don't trust many people anymore. I have become far more cynical as a direct result of all the bullying and abuse I have experienced. It hardens and sobers a person right up. People who were abused in their childhoods tend to become the victim of abuse in adulthood. It's not the victim's fault for developing into someone who doesn't have strong boundaries or self esteem. It takes years to heal from abuse, and it can take years to develop strong boundaries and a wall so that people can no longer hurt you. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes Last edited by Have Hope; Jun 07, 2021 at 11:48 AM.. |
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