[20oney]

Wasn’t really sure where to post this, I just need to get it out of my head somewhere

Today I attended my grandmothers funeral. I don’t see any of my family often because they treated me pretty poorly growing up. So seeing everyone was challenging as expected. My mother was neglectful and I’ve recently started processing that so I am not a great fan of being anywhere near her.

But today, seeing her sobbing at her mothers funeral made me well up which is not something that ever happens in public. Not only that, but I hugged her as I was leaving and for the first time ever, she actually hugged back.

I don’t know what I’m thinking about this at the moment, it’s going to take a lot of processing I think. I guess it just shows that I’m still a human and capable of feeling empathy or whatever. It’s just, thrown me a bit.

[Yaowen]

Thanks so much for sharing that. I have often had to deal with contrary thoughts, attitudes and emotions and I am going through something like that right now. It's good to know I am not alone is this situation. Hope things work out for you for the best!

It's beautiful & conflicting to recognize the humanness in someone that has treated us poorly.

Also you can be a human capable of feeling empathy and be selective in who you open your heart to. Sometimes you're showing yourself empathy by not extending it to people that have hurt you. Sometimes we're just not ready for it.