[Shakeitforme]

I have chased after this guy for years. I even went online looking for him and I "run" into him. I even made fake accounts and talked to him online with him not knowing it was me.

He was in my head for five years! I am jealous, hurt, wounded and I am the CRAZY woman! He will never talk to me again because I am the crazy woman. He deleted his account because I am the crazy woman. I am the crazy woman because I told his new girlfriend/booty call what he is all about. I am the crazy woman because I showed her screenshots of what he said to me and how he told me and her different stories.

I am the crazy woman because i have stalked him online. I have looked up everything about him online. He is also married. His wife does not know that there is a CRAZY woman who is crazy about her husband.

How do I get past this? I feel so much guilt and hurt

[Have Hope]

You need professional help. You have stalked, had an affair and chase a married man for five years. Please get help from a professional.

[Rive.]

"How do I get past this?"

By working on yourself and, with the help of a professional, explore what is making you chase unavailable men and frankly even poor quality men (he has a wife *and* a girlfriend?) . You can't break a pattern if you are not aware of what is driving you to these unhealthy behaviours.