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I am dealing with a bad personal situation and feel very ashamed when going out of the house
I do my best to look put together but am not. Currently overweight (on a diet and trying to exercise) I have to look very anonymous, wearing black pants and black or grey jacket, with sneackers, "very standard and normal", cause I don't want to be bothered. I've been working from home for a while, i am a super alone woman but it is not a problem it ended up like that, since I had social disorders in the past and can't handle it anymore. I mostly try to take care of my relatives I am a weirdo, failure, lost all my friends but currently i am trying just to survive. I needed to vent, now I am going out Problem is any person can read the level of trash my life reached, while i just wish this to end. Not only i feel exposed but also genuinely guilty for what I have become Hate to sound like the "emo kid", I have an age and learnt my lessons. Still sometimes it is taugh |
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@Gasplessy sorry leaving the house is difficult and you feel like you are surviging. Sometimes I just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I try to not judge myself or project what other people are saying about me. It hurts me too much if I do. CANDC [If you want me to see your reply to this post please include @CANDC in your message - not in requoting my message] __________________ Super Moderator Community Support Team "Things Take Time" |
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I hope you can go out and not worry about what others think. Try to find a fun activity.
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Sometimes I have difficulty with getting out. I walked tonight for the 1st time in a week. I try to get at least 4 days a week in just walking but last week there was a stressful situation that triggered a pretty hard drop. I have mood drops frequently [ most times with no particular or apparent trigger] and they've been messing with my progress for years. I hope getting out helped/s.
It's always on my mind how screwed up things became but I still ride the bumps and try to make sense of it. Very VERY tiring at times but then things level out again. Until the next fluctuation anyway. I was advised to try mood stabilizers and it's a long story why I didn't stay on them but I'm considering it again. My go to now is only an anti-depressant. Very thankful it helps somewhat. |
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