[kchuck]

I love my kids so much ! I can't imagine a day without them . Almost everyday I think of how my wife lets me down . I need to get rid of her . But I know that it would mean loosing my kids . I am willing to put myself through so much pain and aggrevation rather then loosing them . There are times when I have such a rough day that they are what I look forward to to save me from going insane . They make me laugh so much , just because they can see sometimes I had a bad day . My 7 yr old will write me little cards that e me want to cry . You see my wife is a pig , who needs to get attention where ever she goes . I know those are harsh words but the fact is i caught her cheating once and intercepted 2 e-mails to make me believe she was intending on having others . i know this sounds pathedic ( i don't know if i spelled that right ) but I don't know what I can do . I couldn't care less for her . But I wouldn't tell her that because I know she would just tell me she would leave , which would be fine if she would leave me the kids but that won't happen. Even though as I writting this she is out with her friends and I put the kids to bed . I would rather put up with this crap and die of a heartattack from stress then live without my kids .

[BalishBun]

the connection between parent and child is stronger than steel. You will deal with the most harsh situations sometimes just to keep them safe.

[darna]

I'm sorry you are in such a difficult position. Are you absolutely sure that your wife would "get" the kids? Have you spoken to a lawyer who specializes in family law?

Please make sure you do things to take care of yourself. Your kids are learning so much about life, love, and how to deal from you, and even in the most difficult of times, they are watching. If you take care of yourself, you'll be able to give more to them.