Okay, for the past 4 years or so, I have made some friends.
Which would be wonderful, if I could stand most of them anymore.

First off, one of them talks about nothing ther then either:
a.) Really random, weird stuff or...
b.) Anything related to sex

And this is a GIRL we are talking about, not some testosterone driven teenage boy. She thinks it's awesome and all that, but it gets reaaaally old after awhile. On top of that, she's now a self-proclaimed "b***h" and certainly lives up to her title. She used to be just cooky and silly but now she acts downright insane and mean sometimes.

This wouldn't be a problem, I would just delete her from my life if I could, if she wasn't the best-firend-of-my-best-friend who seems to act just like her is there is no voice of reason around besides myself. She is a very competant young woman with alot of intelligence so it's suprising to see that she truely doesn't have a mind of her own sometimes.

The third girl I have only a bit of a problem with is because she seems to like to point out my spacey-ness and my lack of ability to remember names, adresses, phone numbers, etc. You know, normaly I can laugh at myself, everybodt wins, everybody has a good time. But lately these sorts of jokes have been making me feel as if everybody thinks I'm stupid or something. It isn't necessarily her fault though, she does that to everyone, bird's got to fly, fish got to swim, she's got to poke fun at everything, probably due to her lovely mix of various mental illnesses...but that is past the point. She is actualy really nice in her pushy and slightly bizzare ways though, she pushes me to not be such an introvert, and I have got to say that I like her despite my slip up by actualy taking what she says to heart.

Now, girl no. 3 has switched to a different lunch period and that leaves me with girl no. 1, 2, and another boy who is another one of my friends despite how his lack of personal hygine makes it almost unbearable to breathe through your nose if you are within a 3-foot (that's about one meter for people who use the metric system) radius of him.

I suppose naturaly, they decide to make this boy their punching bag for stupid comments and such. Let me tell you that this boy also has a laundry list o mental issues too (he even was so kind to make a list for me when I asked him nicely because well...I get very curious about these things, amoung the list was Bipolar, ADHD, General Anxiety Disorder, and some sort of antisocial disorder that he didn't remember the name of, he finished it off by saying he was really messed up, I just told him at least he wasn't schizophrenic) well, needless to say he got very angry, broke the pencil he was drawing with in half, put the broken pencil in his pocket, closed up his notebook, bashed his head on the table a few times, and then just sat there twitching because even though he doesn't get angry easy, when he does he says even his brother (who is about 6-foot-something and weighs 200-something-pounds) is scared of him. So, he does his best not to explode and seriously hurt somebody.

Trying to play peace-keeper here, I told them several times to knock it off. But of course, they don't respect me to the point were they will stop their "fun" for me, especily considering they already threw their caution and empathy to the wind...now I was staring to get angry. I'm not an erupting volcano like this boy allegedly is, mostly because I'm always under the impression that everyone is more physicaly strong then me and I know society does to people who hurt other people (thank god even when my judement is impaired by rage I still keep my reason about me)

In any case, after several warnings, I simply moved to another table. I don't think they noticed or even cared for that matter.

They next day was alot better though, I'm glad the incident didn't repeat itself (to that degree at least) but it's sort of an eye-opener as to how my friends have changed alot and when push comes to shove, even though they are really nice to me and are funny and we have had many good times together, they still don't respect me. They've forgotten what a powerful mental force I can be under the guise of a teenager who has a penchant for silly and childish things.

I guess you can say I have forgiven, but not forgotten.

[Kellarella]

Hey There,

I don't actually have any advice for you but I just wanted to let you know that you are a great writer! I know that was not intended to be a funny story whatsoever, but I found myself smiling when you were describing the people you were talking about, not about them.. just the way you write is great! I found myself wanting to know more about these people and your interactions with them!

Just to be clear, I am not finding amusement in your situation, I don't mean any disrespect, it was just really interesting Hope you will keep writing.

Kel