[gege808]

i feel as if my heart has been ripped out and stomped on while she is laughing.....i feel like a fool for ever loving her i should have known from the beginning this was going to happen.....we have been thru so much this past year we just hit our one year mark.. i thought every thing was okay.. she actted like it was then she dropped the bomb...she is bi-poler... and that has cause a lot of friction in our relationship.. but we just moved here to vegas from hawaii.. and to me things were getting better but apperently it wasnt...she said she fell out of love with me a month ago... that i do not listen to her that i dont pay attention to her that i have an attitude.... i have been nothing but supportive to her every step of the way....she has been my life for the past year... i have never fallen this hard for any one.. i thought we had something i thought it would be forever..... i am all alone no friends no family...i feel lost, hurt, angry, betrayed and deppressed....then she tells me today that her and one of my friends have chemistry together....nothing feels okay....i feel like my life is ending... and i barely have the will to go on but i know that i need to... i do not know what to do....i cant stop crying... i know it really isnt as bad as i feel it is... but she should be the one sitting here with no to help her... she should be the one feeling all the pain... why me...she has all my friends there to comfort her and i have NOTHING....

[paperoses]

This happened to me, except that I became or the stress allowed me to have my first Bi-Polar episode. I have not left him and he has not left me. He insists he still loves me and I am so confused. I feel apart and am unable to pull it together.