Where do I go from here?

I feel alone all the time and don't know how to cope with it. I have 4 children and 1 on the way due Christmas day. The guy I am with pays no attention to me at all, it seems as though he doesn't know me at all, he does really stupid things that bother me and he lies all the time. I have turned to do the only thing there is left to do and I confront him all the time, it doesn't seem to make any difference though. I'm hurt and very sad all the time, I want things to work out so bad but it just doesn't seem to go that way. When I tell him that I am just going to take the kids and leave he gets very upset and sometimes cries, begging me not to leave him. But what about me? When do I say enough is enough and move on? I don't know how to ever make this work and I'm not always sure I want to, at this point I just want it to all go away. We were not brought up the same he had a normal childhood and still to this day has a mother who does everything for him and will go above and beyond for him. I on the other hand raised myself, was beaten and molested and have been diagnosed with PTSD and have lived a life of hell. I moved out on my own at age 15 and started raising a family by the age of 18. I have always been a happy person despite my childhood troubles, I have always been able to look on the brighter side and thank God everyday for the better life I had. Then another terrible thing happened my first husdband left me 7 days after our son was born (this was our 4th child). I had no job, no money, no car, I depended on him for everything. I lost everything before I was able to get everything back, including my children, I sent them to live with his mother while I got on my feet, I had a job, got myself a car and was even able to get my apartment back and in 5 months my children and I were all together again. This made me very proud of myself and I felt empowered. Then I met this man, he was my boss actually and he is 10 years older than me, he made himself seem so responsible and honest, we were just friends for a long time but then it turned into a relationship, it took me a long time to come around to this idea because I was too concerned with messing up the life I had made for my children and myself. To make this long story short I got pregnant with his child and we decided to get a place together, I moved out to the town where he lived and we got our own place, everything seemed fine but about 4 months later I realized that he was lying about alot of things like paying the bills, none of them had been paid since we moved in, everything was about to get shut off, at this point I was very pregnant and sick all the time from all the worrying, this is something that has continued since then and its just one thing after another. I never know what he is going to do and I dont know what to do. I am open to any advice at all right now just please dont be mean. Thanks and sorry its so long.

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i am so sorry for you, you are a very strong person, andyou go througth a lot of ****. which is not your fault. People were mean to you.

I don`t reeally knwo what i woud do...i think that this guy has also mental issues, and that he maybe be spoilt and you should get away from troubles people. you have enough of your own,,,PTSD etc.....you don`t need more of this.

I would reaosnably leave...but i don`t know about being pregnant and the other childredn. do you depend on him finansically?

Now, about the realtiohship thing- i think you shoudl examinne your relashionsips to what kind of men you are attracted and why. It can be something psychological with you because of your abusive past.

by the way -you are not long! look at MY posts...lol

hugs and prayers...................