[Tormented_Lilah]

<font color="pink"> Well I thought I'd write a new topic....My father and brother and I just went out for a bit of rush-hour traffic shopping. They couldnt find any white shirts to wear to the funeral tommorrow so eventually we left and headed home but staples was on the way so i asked to go there ion order to get some school and art supplies...but that's not the most of it. Throughout the entire drive my father and brother and such were fighting and yelling. My father said " Your welcome " To me because i forgot to say thankyou...and i said " what " in response because I didnt hear him. He called me overly selfish ...excedra. Then he went off on how my mother was a %#@&#! and how she ruined all his white t-shirts over 14 years ago. he said mocking my mother " Oh I ripped it on accident " excedra. I wanted to look around staples because I knew there was something I was forgetting...but my brother and father both said no. SUre enough, once we got in the car and on the way back home...I remebered what I had forgotten. I told my father this and he started yelling. Cursing, and saying stuff like " Nothing evers good enough you ungrateful brats " excedra. Yeah.... - .- that was my experience today. Not to mention school that came before all of this...Got called up the the v.p's office cuz Lee threatened my friend and my friend got scared. Ended up crying at lunch and feelin depressed the rest of the day. Missed my math quiz and lesson...and im not going to school tommorrow...so now...I get to do todays lesson and tommorrows lesson and then take the two quizes next monday. I still can't see a therapist. My head hurts so much, and I'm so very very confused right now. My father and my mother...My father says bad things about my mother, and my mother says my father used to have his friends rape her. Sigh. Anyway, Im posting this here because it deals with my relationship towards my father and mothers. I dunno why I post it...I just have to v_v </font>

[nothemama8]

With the funeral coming up your parents maybe finding it hard to cope, so they say things to hurt, this is venting for them. not a good excuse but possible reason, try to help them.was Nana your Mom or Father's Mother?
Honey to him asking to go to staples at this time may have been inappropriate, not saying it was, but he saw it that way, Adults hurt too when loved ones die.
Do you think Lee acted out because of Nana?
Sweetie I have old eyes could you use a darker color when posting please
Angie

[Tormented_Lilah]

Nana was my fathers mother's mother. No dear, asking to go to stables was not an excuse considering he told me to come along in order for me to get the school supplies. They always have said bad %#@&#! about themselves, not just this time...ever since I was one. Ever since their divorce....No Lee does not act out because of nana. She's just vicious...what did I mention about lee...? Sure I'll use a darker color....lhowever I dunno what I did use ._.;

[Tormented_Lilah]

Ah now I know what I wrote....no...lee just acts out because she's violent...I need to talk to her internally about why....

[nothemama8]

Thank you for darker post, it helps the eyes, Marie is the nasty one with us, so your not alone, sweetie have you talked to your guidence counsler about getting help
Angie

[Tormented_Lilah]

I have actually....several times. Nothing ever seems to change though, even when I do

[Wants2Fly]

At best, it's tough to be a teenager, and your situation is especially difficult. My heart goes out to you, Lilah.

Just know somewhere deep inside that it's not your fault that you were born into a dysfunctional family that triggered your others, such as Lee.

It can be hard to understand why some of us are tortured and tormented. Hopefully, someday, your experiences will enable to reach out to someone else with compassion and support.

(((((((((((((((((Lilah)))))))))))))))))))))))