[HansGutenbauer]

Hey, this is actually my first post here on PC and would like to mention that u seem to be a very supporting community, but onwards witht the topic.

I have recently come with some emotional problems due to a "relationship" and though i usually work these things out myself, I find that this time it might not be possible for me to do so, for this has been going on for more than 3 monts, so I ask for your support/advice, but more than anything, to vent.

This might take a while, so brace yourselves hehe:

I am a junior in high school, and have never had much experience regarding romance, have mostly been in short flings and whatever, but they rarely affected my life greatly (mostly crushes and stuff). But a few months ago me and a girl from another school started dating. She saw me at a party, took me out to dance and we did, talked and whatnot, and it turned out we had a great time. I felt I was very quickly falling for her, I had not met a person who was so interesting, fun and intelligent which I dated and as a bonus, she turned out to be cute. Many of my friends (we share those friends) were asking me if there was anything going on, because apparently she spoke to them about me and stuff.

So I was psyched and everything was going perfect for me, when a couple of days after a great date, I get a message from her that she needs to talk. Apparently one of her closest friends had asked her out and she wanted to give him a chance, being that he was a close friend and all and that she wanted to tell me first because I was such an important person to her, and that she wanted to keep knowing me but "not in that way". So, for some reason that hit me hard... it affected my eating and sleeping patterns for an entire week, yet this girl keeps talking to me.

Before the next week even gets halfway done, I am informed that nothing happened between her and that guy because she was not really interested in him, so i think to myself that I have my chance again. So when we go out again (with friends to make it more informal) she ignores me almost completely, and I get more hurt. As I attempted to do the same for a couple of more weeks, the same dissapointment happens. So I try to forget her, I can't, she continued to talk to me over msn and whatnot, but conversations are now overly formal and are not what they used to be.

Now a few of months have passed, and though it seems from her actions that she is not interested in me anymore, I STILL want to be with her so badly, and am not over it. I am very confused towards her behavior, for she seemed to have a great time with me before, almost more into me than I was into her. But now that is over, and why? Just because a friend had asked her out, but not anymore? It makes no sense to me. It aludes me that someone who I barely knew for a few months could affect me so badly, never had I been like this over a girl, and I feel stupid every time i think about it. And before I was perfectly fine being single and just hooking up with girls once in a while, but now that I have attained a true connection with somebody, I feel myself constantly alone, bored and miserable, as though nothing that mattered to me before matters now. I have never been this emotional before, I think that before maybe I was one track minded, but I actually miss that. I really wish I could go back to my old self, but I fear I never will be able to.

Help?! What should I do? Or any girls out here that might understand her crazy behavior? Please!