[v214k]

I have had a lot of issues in the past when it comes to friendships. As of about a year ago I lost my two best friends... One of them hooked up with my boyfriend... The other one tried too... My boyfriend came clean and told me all about this... said he felt guilty... said he felt like he had more then one girlfriend all the time, but it took him a while to say anything to me about it because he thought I really liked these girls and we had been friends for a while so he didn't want to ruin what seemed like otherwise good friendships. Needless to say, I cut them out of my life when I found out. Of course I didn't want to work it out. On numerous occasions when they would try to contact me I would bring up what they had done and they never confirmed it, yet they never denied it either.
So now, it's been about a year and my boyfriend and I moved out of state together... I haven't really made any friends because we both work from home so it's pretty much the two of us. I tried to go on social networking sites when we first moved out here but it was harder to meet people then you would think. We ended up regularly hanging out with one girl that we met online. I thought things were going well... then she started getting weird on me. She'd make comments like "i hate being the ugly one" when we would go out to the bar together... Then she got a boyfriend and started cutting me out of her life... She'd make plans to hang out and then she would be late and I'd just text message her or something to see if she was okay and she'd get back to me literally daaays later and act like nothing happened. I got tired of it and stopped chasing her around.
My boyfriend and I now have another couple that we hang out with a couple of times a month. They are literally our only friends out here. We both really like this new couple and I get a much better vibe about this girl. I feel like she really loves her boyfriend... and I don't feel like she flirts with my boyfriend or anything of the sort. However, I'm having a lot of issues trusting her and getting close to her. Part of me almost feels like it's a waste of time because I feel like she might eventually do something to hurt me or screw me over. I'm literally petrified and find myself ignoring her calls sometimes because of the social anxiety I am getting. If I tell her anything too personal about myself I immediately feel guilty after and shut myself off. What do you think is causing this... Is there any way to get past this? I feel extremely alone and miserable... And yes, I am seeing a therapist...

[tat2doc]

I think your past hurts & betrayals are what's causing your problems now. But you can't judge a book by its cover. So to think your new girlfriend will do anything with your b/f is making her guilty before the crime while she is still innocent. And if you're waiting for her to become guilty, you could be missing out on a great friendship.

Stick with the therapy and take it one day at a time. And definitely don't let your imagination get the best of you.