[tablarosa]

Today I am saying goodbye to my sweet kitty who has been my daily companion for the past 8 years. She is so old and frail now that I know that she has no quality of life anymore.

This morning my husband didn't even say goodbye to her before he left for work. He knows how important she is to me; he knows that she is basically my best friend. He will never see her again, and it doesn't even matter to him.

I was up all last night holding her and telling her what a great companion she has been and how much I love her. And it's like he doesn't even notice.

So, we are going to walk this path alone -- just my kitty and me.

THIS IS NOT HOW I WANTED MY LIFE TO BE.

I want to make it different. I promised my little kitty that in her honor I would take back my life. Last night I felt so much like I could do that. But today I feel like I am right back at the beginning.

leave tonight or live and die this way - Tracy Chapman

[madisgram]

oh tabsorry bout your kitty. what an unselfish thing you are doing for her. i hope you will be ok.
as for the hubby i sense there's more going on than the kitty. do u feel comfortable sharing about this with us?

[mixedup_emotions]

I am so sorry about your kitty....I know how hard it is to face this, the sadness is so profound.

I am also sorry that your husband is not being more supportive.

[tablarosa]

Originally Posted by madisgram

oh tabsorry bout your kitty. what an unselfish thing you are doing for her. i hope you will be ok.
as for the hubby i sense there's more going on than the kitty. do u feel comfortable sharing about this with us?

Thanks. There is a lot more going on with my husband. I am trying to figure out how to mop up this life I made and get out of here...but I dug myself in pretty deep. I have lots of problems of my own that need "fixing" before I can make a life for myself. And today it just seems like one thing after another.

The day just keeps going downhill. I made another post just a bit ago. It explains better all the flotsam and jetsam.

[notz]

We'll be with you in spirit dear, you are not alone! Your sweet companion will be in a better place.

[sunrise]

(((((tablarosa))))) I'm sorry about your dear sweet kitty. I can tell she is a family member to you.

[Amazonmom]

I'm sorry about your sweet kitty.

The love of a pet means so much

[tablarosa]

Thanks to everyone who said nice things about my kitty.

She is my best friend.

I tried to put a picture in this message, but I don't have enough posts to do that. When I do, I will put a picture of my Beauty in the pets forum (she is my baby)

Just an update...my lovely Beauty is still with me. My youngest son and I are very close and he told me yesterday that he thought I was too emotional with all that is going on with my oldest son (leukemia) to fully evaulate the situation. So he went with me to the vet and the three of us talked about Beauty's life and condition. And as a result of that discussion, we brought Beauty home for now with some new medication.

This is such a hard decision to make.