[SarahSweden]

I was terminated nearly a year ago but still have those intense feelings about my former T, mostly longing for and grieving her. But sometimes, even if I never were sexually attracted to her within sessions, I find myself thinking about her when I watch some beautiful erotic movies, amateur movies with real people having sex.

It´s not at all about wanting to have sex or imagine having sex with my T but she in some way "flashes by" in my mind, wondering if she pleases herself like that, if she has done something similar like in the movie together with a partner.

I find it somewhat strange as I´m not at all in to porn and porn movies with actors, I´m never that attracted to anybody at all, like when sitting in a café or something. But still, I get those thoughts about my T who I don´t even see anymore. Could anybody explain why?

I would never try to attract a T to something "real", I saw my T more like a mother but I still find it a bit amusing if I can get a T to think I have nice clothes, that I look good and so on.

To me it would only be somewhat "entertaining" if I knew my T had thoughts about me. Like if she got thoughts like "she must please herself as she lives by her own" or if I knew she unintentionally come to think of me in a sexual sitiuation. I don´t mind at all. Of course I don´t mean thoughts that interfere with therapy or are acted out in some way.

[lunatic soul]

I think that sometimes straight people attach the same sex person so much that they start to think about being closer and closer especially if they can't meet that person anymore so misses her even much more.
I have had thoughts about kissing the woman I was really attached to but I don;t think I'm lesbian because normally I don't fall in love with women and I have lost her and I missed her too much so my thoughts turned to something like this because of missing her.

Answering to your title question- yes I dream about having sex with my T and I want him to want me and dream of me this way.

[iheartjacques]

Of course I wish he would think about me, but after seeing pictures of his wife, I doubt it.

[nicoleflynn]

Unfortunately, he did and led me on....big time.

[Mike_J]

I can't seem to get past fantasy about just having a "normal" conversation with her. But would be overjoyed if I found out she had fantasies about me

[Daystrom]

I have pretty frequent sexual fantasies involving T and myself (in fact I'm having one right now), but I've also imagined her with other men (and women, I have no idea if she's into women but what the hell). Same sort of thing -- imagining what she's done, what she likes, how she likes it, and you better BELIEVE I hope she has similar thoughts about me.... yeah, basically I'm practicing on being a dirty old man.

[HowDoYouFeelMeow?]

I surely hope not. I would not want any T having sexual thoughts about me during SA work.