[Hunny]

I don't remember where I posted something and I am formulating an expression of gratitude here around an event that happened yesterday so I'm thinking perhaps here is the best place for me to put down at least something.

The event was for abused people. I have never never never seen anything like this before. Perhaps that is why I am having so much difficulty in expressing myself here.

There have been plenty of 'healing theme events' I've been to but never never never anything specific to those who have been abused.

The light was shone on what happens to brains and bodies of people who are traumatized by abuse and the process they need to go through for healing and some good alternate therapies without labelling. But, I'm still kind of in awe about the fact that the event took place. Perhaps I can say more later about this, I'm not sure. There is a certain gratitude welling up within me.

A few months ago I heard of groups that get together to support abusers called circle of love or something and I just felt pretty angry and disheartened realizing that there was never never never anything called the circle of love for the abused.

So, yesterday the realization in my mind was (that I wanted to at first throw out), now that this event has occured, is that I can no longer say there hasn't been one. My cry/whine for the injustice of it all had been heard.

So, what if, what if, I saw my abusers through a one way glass (cause that is all I can think of at this point) and contemplated a face to face with them, what would I say, do, think, feel? That is about as far as I can think at this point. Maybe, I will ask my counsellor this question, yes, that is what I will do. This would all be pretty hypothetical as several abusers are dead and I wouldn't be 'caught dead' with the others. It's just a consideration I'm having about discussing this with the counsellor at this point.

But this idea of gratitude for this type of 'event' has unearthed something within me. The 'event' may not have been exactly the way I would like to have seen it done but the aspect of it even taking place was pretty profound.

Yea for events that promote healing.

[notablackbarbie]

(((Hunny)))
Double yeah!
I would love more details too = like how this came to be, what happened, where, who...

[Hunny]

Thank you, yes, here's to: going >>>> toward healing!

Details are finding the path to written expression.

How I found out about it is through word of mouth. I signed up. People gathered together. Some talked about how they had been in a caring group of people for three months. There were two educational sessions (as i mentioned above) and some spiritual content in the form of music and a prayer.

I liked being with the people I sat with, going for lunch with them and for a walk at the break.

I agreed with the educational component of the presentation and the people who shared were very nice and seemed to genuinely have been helped after being in the their group for 3 months.

I also liked the music.

Hearing that 'abused people are and will be heard' was a phrase I was extremely moved by. I really had to hold my cry in. Fortunately, the session was near the end and I went to the washroom.

The teaching power point screens were great and there was a neat picture of two snails making their way to a ship (an arc).

I got a bit scared when I thought I might have to listen to a lot of abuse stories but it was more about to go get help than telling abuse stories. But it wasn't dismissive of the stories of abuse.

I think they meant it to be a safe place but the red lights bothered one of the people I was with so I worried others might feel worried too. It was a bit dark in the room too except at the end a sunbeam came through the door and landed right on our backs.

I didn't like the prayers at the end for a number of reasons. I think it would have confused me to be prayed for and so I left. I am sure people may get healed miraculously but for me it has taken many years of counselling and I think that is more realistic. Also, trust in a stranger praying for me does not appeal to me. I was happy at the end though, because for me, it was enough to hear that people who have been abused and without voice are getting their voice.

So, gratitude is finding it's way to the surface for that which was meaningful to me.. .