[Robyn222]

As I said elsewhere I left a site where a few people ganged up on me. One of the things at that time ( after being there 6 months) were sudden terrible financial stressors which I talked about. Those ( begging for money) and every other slander imaginable were laid at my feet. So I left. I had no choice. Never had anything like that happen before. I feel lost and am afraid to talk about money stressors but I have to. I need prayer that the money I need to buy my medication comes by the time that I need it. I need prayer that the new job pays me enough to get by and that I find a better paying job soon. Mainly I pray for this sense of being so alone, afraid, and trampled to death to leave me and that I find peace, prosperity, and love. I miss my beloved dog Beau so very much. He died 2 years ago on June 10. My heart continues to break. No counseling in the world will every stop the pain. The loss of the unbelievable love bond he and I shared. I miss him every single day. Rarely does a day pass that I do not cry for the loss of my Beau. He means more to me than anything. And I still cannot believe fully that he is gone. How can a being THAT close and THAT perfectly in sync with you die? We were in a beautiful symbiosis. How could he be gone from me until I die? I cannot comprehend that. Some believe that animals sometimes come back to their owners and I wonder if Beau might do that. I tried getting 2 different dogs and each was a disaster. My heart is so broken. This is going to sound silly but the best analogy I can think of is if you lost you mother and someone said oh just go get another one. I can't. I can't just get another dog. There is only Beau. I love dogs and am in such pain and ambivalence over this. When I had the other dogs I could never stop comparing them to Beau. Beau Beau Beau Beau. I loved him so much I don't know how to live without him.

[Direction]

So prayed - I hope you will feel the peace for these issues that lay so heavily on you.

[Rapunzel]

We had a dog like that too. His name was Oscar, and he was the perfect dog. I do love the dogs that we have now, but they are not Oscar and we still make comparisons. Oscar was my comfort when I was upset about something, and I didn't know what to do when I lost him.

The really sad thing is when someone loses a pet and will never consider opening their heart to another pet because they don't want to risk a loss like that again. You have tried having other dogs, and maybe you were not ready yet or maybe they were not right for you. May God send you healing and new opportunities for relationships with people and animals who will fill your life with joy again.