[youOme]

I mean absolutely no disrespect to anybody or their beliefs...

I grew up in a non religious and very religious setting my entire life. My mother who was my main care provider is non religious. She claims she believes in Jesus, Him, heaven and hell, but does not worship or attend church. My father on the other hand is a minister and is very religious, his entire life is dedicated to his devotion to Him. I naturally have questioned God and religion and at one point was a believer in the Christian way and at another point was a non believing atheist. My life has recently turned and I've realized that I've always deep down believed in an power larger then myself. It's in our human nature to have faith in something that explains what we cannot understand. I've come to realize how important faith is and how lonely and twisted this world is without it. I don't necessarily believe because of fear, but because of enlightenment.

My God:
Isn't pure nor mistake free. It, he, her...isn't identifiable nor fathomable. With all the minds in the world combined with the wisest of philosophers and theologists, my God could not be understood. God is apart of us, and our human mind could not grasp God. We couldn't possibly understand the morals, values, rules, sacredness, divinity, or anything else related to God. I don't believe God judges neither, because judgement is a humanistic expression. Nobody burns in damnation, again...discipline is humanistic. I think the moment we our conceived within our mothers womb we apart of God and God is apart of us. The only thing our human mind could possibly grasp in the aspect of God is the idea of God. Our senses are God. The only way could ever consume God from the outside would to surrender all human sensory and take him in through nature. Even then we could only handle a sample because physically we couldn't ever feel God.

The only reason people lack belief is because they've relied on their physical senses to define their environment...if they can't see it, feel it, hear it, or taste it...they believe it must not be there. But what they don't understand is what not to understand...and that is beyond their limitations. Could you blame them? I surely don't.

Something inside me has changed recently. I didn't have a miraculous event....I didn't find love, nor did anybody influence my concept through conversation. Just simple discovery through aesthetics. Beauty is the greatest door in relation of God. Things I've never once considered beautiful are now. I'm connecting with my God....it feels to good to describe, I no longer feel so alone. My human emotions can't possibly grasp how grand this is. I believe things will begin to change for me.

[nowheretorun]

this is a beautiful post youome..... thank you..

[Danialla]

I agree......Beautiful!

[recluse1]

May you continue to be blessed and everyday come closer to Him. I believe God is everything good, right, and beautiful in this world. so the closer our walk with Him, the more precious the life becomes.

[bebop]

I for one am so happy to read this post! woo hoo! I am doing the happy dance! God is so wonderful to me! When I changed my life for Him He made things happen for me and I know He will you too hon. God bless you!

Thanks for sharing.... blessings.....

[SweetCrusader]

Thank you for sharing

[coralproper]

I like your God...

[sassypants]

Thank you for sharing your post. It gave me the chills.
I know because God works in a mysterious ways.

((((((((((((((youoweme)))))))))))

wow ..... my penny just dropped ..... you'll never know how much this post reached my heart......

THANKYOU

Jinny xxxxx

you are one special person do you know that????

[youOme]

Thanks everybody for understanding. Ultimately all our Gods are the same because God is everything...so really, we are all children of God, brothers and sisters.

It means a lot that you've accepted this post and in a way was touched. I feel I've been touched as well, in a way I could never explain. I'm sure there are people out there that know exactly what I mean.

(((everyone)))

((((((you owe me))))))

you are so good at puting your point across

thankyou

Jin x

Know exactly what you mean.... thank you so much for sharing. You reached the hearts of many. What a blessing you have brought with your courage, your love and your acts of kindness. You speak in ways that touch people, that rings true for people and ministers love to our souls.

Blessings..........

[1oxbowgirl]

Thanks for sharing. I am glad you are posting here.