[free902]

First of all, I feel I have to say that I'm really debating with myself whether to post this at all, as everyone who I've told about it, (from people I know personally, to people in other various forums) has had a, shall we say, less than productive response for me. I'll I've ever been looking for is some insight.

For starters, I should say that I've never really been a religious person, though I've always had an interest in religions, however. Not in that I'm looking for a faith or anything, but I've always been into ancient books and texts of any kind.
A while back a friend of my suggested I look into some old texts that were available online, and so I did. After looking over some of them for about an hour or so, I stopped for a while to watch a hockey game on TV. The only reason I mention this is because the coverage of the game began at 8:00, which is when I started watching, while the game itself began at 8:08, which becomes important in a moment.
After watching the pre-game stuff for a minute or so, I started feeling dizzy, and very soon after I had what I can only describe(though, again I'm really not a religious person) as an extremely intense religious experience that seemed to relate to what I had been reading earlier. My eyes opened, and it all felt exactly like a dream, except that when it ended, I was out of breath. Not like you'd be after running a marathon, but it literally felt like I had no air in my lungs. Then I just sat there breathing very deeply and thinking about this strange dream I had just had, but then I noticed that the game I was watching still hadn't started. This whole event lasted no more than a a minute or two, so even if I had fallen asleep, I couldn't have started dreaming that quickly. Not to mention that I have terrible problems getting to sleep even on occasions when I've been awake for more than 24 hours, and I wasn't the least bit tired at the time. Maybe the strangest part of it all, was that afterwards, I felt absolutely great in a way I can't explain. It was as if all the problems that I've been dealing with were completely wiped out. Like I was suddenly free of all psych-related issues. Unfortunately, after a couple hours, that feeling faded and I was back to regular state.
Now I know that I have my share of psych problems, but hallucinations have never been part of it. I've tried to find some explanation but I've come up with absolutely nothing. I spent a long time trying to convince myself that I had fallen asleep, that I was reading the clock wrong when I "woke up", or that it was some new psychological effect I hadn't experienced before, but it just doesn't make any sense. I really have no idea how to interpret this.

So there it is. I already regret it, but it took me too long to type out and I don't want to wake up tomorrow hating myself for not posting it when all I had to do was press continue. So here I go.

((((((free)))))))))

[Rapunzel]

Free, thank you for sharing your experience. I don't know if anyone here will have insight that helps you or not, since it sounds like your experience was personal, and there is no way for us to know, really, what it was that you felt. You describe it as breathtaking, and say that it felt good and left you with a sense of well-being. Maybe it was a loving spirit speaking to you from the other side of the veil which separates the physical world and the spirit world. It does sound like you were touched by someone or something, and that whatever it was, it was benign and loving.

I would be interested in your thoughts and interpretation of your experience, since you are the only one who really knows what you felt. It sounds like it was a good and precious experience, and I hope that you hold it close in your heart and remember it. Use that memory to help you get through the bad times. You are loved.

[Perna]

I think all sorts of experiences are available to our minds and hearts that we might not be familiar with. When I've had such, I've worked more to see, as Rapunzel suggests, what it "means" or does for me.

There's several interesting books you might want to look through, see if they apply?

http://www.amazon.com/Quantum-Change.../dp/1572305053

http://www.amazon.com/Epiphanies-Whe...dp/1582701679/

http://www.amazon.com/Epiphanies-Psy.../dp/0761563768

[(JD)]

"One" thing that may have happened (really a combination of many) is that after studying intently you began to either hyperventilate or have an anxiety attack from holding your breath. The intense studying was fresh in your mind and may also have triggered your mind/thoughts... and when you passed out from holding your breath (without realizing you were) it created the "dream"... the time/space continuum regarding the mind and dreams is unfathomable...happens in split seconds.... the good feelings could have come from increased endorphin activity from the experience, thus creating the good feelings.

Not saying that is what happened, just giving a brief idea.

Maybe it was just God showing you that he can take away all your troubles if you are just willing to let him. He wants to take care of you, you just have to let him. You felt so good for just that bit of time now imagine if you let God be in your life 24/7... how much wight would be lifted from you! Religion is different for all people and not everyone receives the same sort of emcperience, God speaks to everyone differenly and I truly think this was him telling you to have faith in he who is the creater of heaven and earth!

F.R.O.G
(fully rely on God)

[recluse1]

WOW! what you have described definitely sounds like a spiritual experience to me. i would love to hear more about it if you feel like you could go into more detail. Sounds like it was truly a blessing to experience. Maybe you do not fully understand it, but, sometimes we don't need to understand with our minds what it is that the heart feels.

Interested in listening if you would like to share any further!

recluse1

[1oxbowgirl]

It could have happened because of your trouble with sleeping, but also by your intense reading on line you may have a seizure. What made me think of this was the fact of you saying how very tired you were after this experience. Staring at a computer screen for long periods can cause this reaction even in people who do not have a seizure disorder. I would say if it happens again get it checked out just to be on the safe side.