[Danialla]

KathyM....

I know that you really struggle with your physical health. And I sense that because of that your depression overwhelms you at times, at least it would me .....

Please know that I am thinking and praying for you today. Every so often your name pops into my head and I think to myself, she must be need my extra help today, so I pray for you.

I thought I would post this today so that others may join in by sending you, good thoughts, prayers, Karma, whatever works for you! Or maybe they will take just a few moments to let you know that they too, are thinking of you today.

Take care KathyM

[nowheretorun]

(((Danialla)))((((KathyM)))))

what a good way of putting it Danialla, occasionally KathyM or another member here will cross my mind and just like you, i feel its for a reason, that someone might need and extra kindness or good thought today... that is truly the beauty of our forums here... i hope you are getting by well enough Kathy... always praying and thinking of you... please have good health while so much is happening that might lessen your feelings of peace and sanctuary in this world...

[nowheretorun]

(((Danialla)))((((KathyM)))))

what a good way of putting it Danialla, occasionally KathyM or another member here will cross my mind and just like you, i feel its for a reqason, that someone might need and extra kindness or good thought today... that is truly the beauty of our forums here... i hope you are getting by well enough Kathy... always praying and thinking of you... please have good health while so much is happening that might lessen your feelings of peace and sanctuary in this world...

[KathyM]

Aw, thank you ((Danialla and NWTR))

I miss my son so much, and I'm so worried about him. I'm trying my hardest to cope, but each day that passes gets a little harder. When I'm able to sleep, I only have nightmares. It's difficult to eat or even think of anything else because I can't just stop being a mother. It's not about my welfare, it's about his welfare - so relieving my pain does not relieve my stress, worry or emotion. I won't be able to exhale until he comes home and I see him in one piece, inside and out. I'm trying my hardest to deal with the exacerbation of my symptoms because I know how much it would hurt my son if something happened to me while he's overseas.

He assures me he's hanging in there, but what's keeping him going is knowing he'll be home by Christmas. Now he's being told it's possible he could be stop-lossed and forced to serve ANOTHER FOUR YEARS! So in addition to worry and stress, I'm incredibly angry. Yeah, I know it said so in the fine print when he signed up BUT he initially signed up for only two years! We also fell for the propaganda that this would be a "good" opportunity for him to grow as a man. They have him working in Special Forces, so his chances of being stop-lossed are good because he's "experienced" now. I'm sorry, but they didn't turn him into a man - they turned him into a killing machine.

If he gets stop-lossed, it could break him. It WILL definitely break me.

I truly appreciate your prayers for my son, and I truly appreciate your support for me.

[SeptemberMorn]

Kathy, I don't know what I would have done had my sons gone into the military when they were of age. My husband and I used to say that if there was a draft, we'd move to Canada where my husband is from. Thank God that never happened. I remember the desperation I felt then, though. My love for my country as opposed to the love for my sons would have been put to a terrible test.

There have been many times that had I not had my faith, I might have gone bonkers strictly from the worry. I have also found that what I worry the most about... never happens. I've worried needlessly and I have caused myself harm in doing so.

Whoever your Higher Power is, pray that your son is watched over and kept out of harm's way. Then trust your Higher Power to keep your son safe. God hears mother's prayers and I believe he listens and answers them first. When my mom prayed for me, her prayers were always answered quicker than mine were.

You also have a responsibility to your son to be the best mom you can be while he's gone so you'll be together for him when he gets back. It's a tough order, I know, especially with the illness you have to live with every day. The most we can expect of ourselves, though, is the best we can do... even if others don't agree with us that it's our best.

I will keep you and your son in my prayers, Kathy. May you find some peace in your heart until he comes home in one piece.

[KathyM]

Thank you ((Septembermorn))

I believe my Higher Power is the same God as yours. I appreciate your prayers.

Like all of you, I've had to deal with my share of burdens in life. I've never blamed God for this. It was my faith that got me through it all. When I look back, I can usually see the lessons learned. I don't see why the rest of my life would be any different. I figure if I'm left with something way beyond my comprehension, I'll just bring it up with the Big Guy when I cross over. God has to know by now I'm a brat. I'll say to him face to face "Hey, what was THAT all about?" I wonder what he'll say? I wonder if he wears a belt? I wonder how fast we can run in heaven?

I think what's most terrifying is the realization of what little control I have in this situation. I don't have a say on what will happen in the future - I can only make humble requests at this point.

After 24 years, I think I've learned my lesson. From Day 1, I've tried to avoid my son having to go through this. One day at the dinner table when he was in junior high, my husband suggested the military as an option. My son thought it was a pretty cool idea to go to boot camp, but that was it. He only liked the physical challenge, not the combat. He wasn't into fighting in the streets either because he was aware of the consequences. When my husband pushed the idea of joining the military, I became livid and told him ONLY if he could PROMISE me there would be no war. I have nothing against the training.

Lord knows I don't want to lose my son over there. But I also don't want to see him return with missing limbs or an empty look in his eyes. This is my humble request and prayer.

Once again, I appreciate your support and prayers.

[SeptemberMorn]

I agree with you on your prayer request, Kathy. I will pray the same way. "Where two or more..."

(KathyM))))))))))))))))))
you and your son are always in my prayers and thoughts
muffy

[Danialla]

Oh Kathy, I completely forgot about your son, I am so sorry.

I have a son in his mid-twenties and forever grateful that he did not choose to serve in the military. I admire any person who chooses to serve, but as a parent, I don't think I could handle it. I would be sick with worry and feel bad that you and your son are going through this.......

Now when your name pops into my head, I will be sure to add your son and family to my prayers for you!

Please take care of yourself and remember we are all hear praying and sending good thoughts your way....

[nowheretorun]

((((KathyM)))) i pray for peace with you, for you, and all..