[chig23]

im sitting here. there is no one around. i cant figure out what to do with myself. i just think and have hardly anything to do. im bored all the time and scared to talk to people. it makes me nervous even writing on this. im scared to get out of my head and be with the people around me but for some reason i cant. i them i am mute. like they pushed the mute button on me. there are buttons to push and whats happens if thats one of them. im so paranoid i think or it might be anxiety. not to sure which one. something sidetracked me and now i am lost again. well so much for my thoughts.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Originally Posted by chig23

im sitting here. there is no one around. i cant figure out what to do with myself. i just think and have hardly anything to do. im bored all the time and scared to talk to people. it makes me nervous even writing on this. im scared to get out of my head and be with the people around me but for some reason i cant. i them i am mute. like they pushed the mute button on me. there are buttons to push and whats happens if thats one of them. im so paranoid i think or it might be anxiety. not to sure which one. something sidetracked me and now i am lost again. well so much for my thoughts.

Hey, Chig23. Well done on taking the first step in sharing your blahdom. Funny thing is there are a whole lot of people here who say nothing, but share those very experiences. I'm busy trying to find my way out of a psychotic episode, and many things push me back into my corner to observe before acting. Just today I had the car radio on while on my to fetch my kids from school, when some really weird sound effects played, and I had to turn the radio off because I couldn't be sure I was hallucinating or whether the radio was really making those sounds. Even turning it off didn't convince me because the event that landed me in hospital was commands coming from my car radio which stopped when I turned it off.

So from one sidetracked mute to another, WELCOME!

[mgran]

Welcome to the boards... and hoping you find the confidence here to find your voice.

[mokie]

Was in your shoes when I first came here. You will start to feel comfortable here. Everyone is so helpfull and are willing to share their experience to help others. Hope you can unmute the mute button soon. Welcome to PC.