[Gaberiel]

I have been diagnossed as schizoaffective for over five years now. I have severe mood swings and halucinations when not in an extreme state. Well I had halucinations. I always seperated the voices into outside and inside voices. I always knew the outside voices weren't real and it was my mind playing tricks on me. I had loads of paranoia and delusional thinking. About a year ago I had some serious issues with gender identitiy out of nowhere so I started doing research and the only thing I could come up with is DID. I started seeking help for that and recognizing the inside voices, when I did that the paranoia just washed away, so did the halucinations and the delusional thinking (I can potty in front of the mirror in the bathroom). I have had some serious issues with my illness, but I am always questioning and looking for answers. I started seeing a psychologist for the DID concearns, he has been helpful, I think. He tried some relaxation techniques and that turned out poorly, my mind rebeled, I was washed with anger and eventually my inner voices stopped speaking, ALL of them. I haven't had another voice in my head in six months. I started helping this guy up the road with odd jobs, and the stress from it is taxing me. I have had some time skips, few seconds here and there, but I feel the push.

I can't tell you if I am DID I don't seem to portray a lot of the traits, but as the books go I am schizoaffective. Not sure what to do, like talking to people for their opinion and maybe find a way I can be happy with my situation.

Some people have alternate personalities that have mental disorders & that's really interesting!! The validity of whether you have this disorder or that disorder isn't as important as how you FEEL. Good luck here. There are a lot of people with good advice to give. And if no one responds here, the psychosis & bipolar forums are always busy... So you can ask about problems related to each separate issue in those! : D