[Bear Morgan]

Hello my name is Gary "Bear" Morgan. I'm currently 25 and diagnosed so far with ADHD, Depression, Paranoia, Schizoaffective disorder with Audio/Visual hallucination and recently Night Terrors.

Well onto topic. I was wondering what im thinking lately. Violent thoughts have begun to show up out of thin air into my mind lately which normally im a very peaceful person. Im thinking im getting closer to a breakdown emotionally. Usually when this happens I become deeply depressed or very angry. It's like im unable to control my thoughts. They are violent or destructive thoughts and when I feel like i am getting closer to a meltdown I try to put myself back down and lately it's doing well but the more things anger me with these thought or depress me with negative feeling. Sometimes i believe that the 'cork' will pop on my bottle and send a stream of pain into my mind, heart and body. So if anyone has ways to cope with this please give me some pointers.

[LostMom3]

I feel this way sometimes. I have to isolate myself from everyone and everything. This means being in the bedroo, all alone, no books, no tv, no internet. Soft, soothing music helps. Writing in my journal helps. Other than that I really don't know what to tel you.

[brackenbeard]

you're not alone. these thoughts are difficult to remedy. i think the ability to occupy your mind with stuff helps a great deal. i've heard people say we need to manage our reactions to them, or we have to learn to accept them. well, i say, there is a root to these thoughts, and that is the negativity we feel in our entire being. i believe with the right approach we can get over these thoughts with our own understanding of who we are. if you are a good person why should you worry about these thoughts? if you believe you are a good person, then these should seem ridiculous, right.

i believe thoughts like these are a by-product of the negativity in ourselves. everybody has these thoughts, but it seems people with mental illnesses are those more prone to get stuck in them. maybe because people with mental illnesses have deeper issues at the core of their being. i'm just musing here, but it's what i've been thinking lately.

[Bear Morgan]

i feel these ideas help abit. At least the journal one i've taken up but when I started doing that it seems im starting to feel philosophical with myself which in my case is very odd since I dont normally write much. It makes me feel as if my innerself that wants out is coming through the pen. I've started writing on belife of life after death and the after life and how they coexist with each other. In fact im still writing it now. So i dont know what is either wrong with me or going good with me. Whats also odd is i've never really been a spiritual person.