[eliralena]

So for the last few days I've been depressed, just feeling like nothing's worth my time anymore and that I might as well get off my meds because the place that diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder isn't wanting to release information to anyone. If I do this though I plan to admit myself to some other place that will release information. I don't know if I really want to do this though...
Okay random though aside I just feel depressed... like nothing is ever worth it anymore and I should give up on everything because I'm nothing and no-one... and I'll never amount to anything. I think my mood stabilizing medication isn't working or my anti-depressant isn't working... One or the other.

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Originally Posted by eliralena

So for the last few days I've been depressed, just feeling like nothing's worth my time anymore and that I might as well get off my meds because the place that diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder isn't wanting to release information to anyone. If I do this though I plan to admit myself to some other place that will release information. I don't know if I really want to do this though...
Okay random though aside I just feel depressed... like nothing is ever worth it anymore and I should give up on everything because I'm nothing and no-one... and I'll never amount to anything. I think my mood stabilizing medication isn't working or my anti-depressant isn't working... One or the other.

sounds like depression (a very painful blip) in your recent life. definitely get the meds adjusted... it's funny how myopic (shortsighted) and embroiled in our pain we get. It's so easy to slip into believing it will never end because in this moment we feel terrible. i'm guilty of this all the time. i lose track of the fact it always gets better, and "this too shall pass". it's so difficult to feel anything but our pain, and so easy to get lost in it. but when depression breaks (for me it's almost like a new lease) on life. we wonder why we ever considered giving up when we break out of it.

it's amazing how much power depression holds over us. and how amazingly different we feel when the blip is over.

depression takes away our spark to do anything. i mainly sleep and watch tv when i'm depressed, or go to work and go through the motions not conversating much with people. it's striking how when we most need to do the stuff that makes us feel good (ride a bike, draw, jog, write, hang w/ friends etc...) is when we're in so much pain we can't get ourselves to do anything. my best advice is when you get depressed you need to do the small things in life that you enjoy, and try to keep a somewhat normal life in balance. when i'm depressed i don't shy away from good friends because i need them. i get on a skateboard because in those times I need to.