[eliralena]

I miss the voices and the hallucinations and I'm thinking about going off my respiridone because of it. I miss my old self.
Who else feels the same?

[kaliope]

I resent having to take meds but when I think about the quality of my life being so much better since I have been on them, it keeps me taking them. I am sick and tired of the ups and downs and shifts. I want to keep the stability....take care of yourself.

[worthit]

I used to resent my meds horribly.I'd look at them with a dirty, hateful look. But the quality of my lifeboat so much better now with them. The hallucinations and voices are a part of your illness and don't help with your recovery. And I still get the occasional hallucination or voice through the medication.

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[avlady]

It is so relieving that my meds are working most of the time, i am so happy i was put on them years ago, i think they saved my life and my mind. I refused them at first, but m glad people were there to get me through taking them. They really do help me, i don't know about others but please take your meds if you feel you need them and try to stay on schedule and i wouldn't fight it myself, but i don't know what others think about it too much.

[lucky2001]

I miss voices and delusions as well. I've thought about quitting my meds but each time I stopped taking them, the voices and delusions were horrible!! I guess i want to quit taking them but at the same time i'm scaredof what might happen :/

[allme]

Wouldn't recommend it....I had the same thought about coming off meds a while ago and it was a disaster! Speak to your pdoc before you decide anything!

[Tsunamisurfer]

Originally Posted by lucky2001

I miss voices and delusions as well. I've thought about quitting my meds but each time I stopped taking them, the voices and delusions were horrible!! I guess i want to quit taking them but at the same time i'm scaredof what might happen :/

At the moment I don't have to miss them, cos the only meds I'm on are mood stabilisers. (i.e. they say hello whenever they feel like it). My T asked me an interesting question: Why are the hallucinations and dreams so traumatic? My thought: If they weren't traumatic, maybe we would be even less inclined to put up with the ill effects of psych drugs.

I have a mix of symptoms. Sometimes they don't worry me, like now. They are minor, and voices can be rather amusing if I don't let them bug me. Sometimes if it is building towards mania (the nice happy clean type) I have wonderful hallucinatory and delusional experiences. I don't want those to go away. I love them (but they drop me in the brown stuff soon enough). But sometimes they come with very disturbing paranoia and debilitating delusions. Not cool!

The trouble with both the feel good type and the rotten, mean and nasty types is the trouble both are likely to cause.

So for me, it boils down to severity and likelihood of an acute episode rather than whether the experiences are okay/beautiful or miserable.

..my 2p