[Watson30]

Hi everyone. I have schizoaffective disorder/depressive type. I have some hard choices coming up. Move to another place or put up with the gossip about me that has infected this town. my family lives here and I would miss them. However I am smoking a pack a day due to the stress of being here and skipping meals because I stay stressed. I am married and have kids. I worry about my kids not seeing my side of the family if we leave. I worry if we do leave and I get homesick... what then? Hard to see a solution right now. Anyhows, I hope to get my stuff straight and be able to talk to you all as you need support as well.
Look forward to hearing from you.
Take care

[worthit]

Could some of the town talk possibly be from your sza? Schizoaffective affects paranoia and thought processes of people looking at you,giving you dirty looks and talking about you. I hope you can see it as coming from you and stay around the support system you have with your family. You need them when you have MI.

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[Watson30]

I had really wanted to believe that. I admit some of the time I probably am mishearing things that are said or I believe are said but a couple of times people have shouted at me about what I am paranoid about. That is why I think my medical records were opened by someone and they put some of that on facebook. I already felt paranoid about people talking about me but after I felt that way I would always say it was just my illness. I can't say that any longer. Where I worked they did background checks and I think that is how it got released by someone who read my file. I worry about my children and my wife finding out that they really are talking about me. I can't believe someone would be that vile to do such a thing as spread it like that. I feel mentally violated. I don't think such a thing happens all the time. I am sure I am the exception for the most part. My doctor and counselor don't believe me either. And that is the hell of it. Nobody believes me so I am going it alone. And who would believe me if I said someone had looked at my medical records. They would just say I was delusional. I really want to believe it is just a delusion.

[sandysay]

Sometimes when we get a new job we don't realize that we are signing something that grants them permission to look into our medical records. If that happened and someone misused their authority and mentioned your medical history to another and so on, it would be hard to prove. Unless someone would actually disclose that to you.

I think you have the potential to show your co-workers, neighbors, and anyone else who may know, that a diagnosis of schizo-affective disorder doesn't mean you are a crazy person who needs to be institutionalized. If you are worried that you are being stereotyped, prove them wrong.

Personally, I would stay in the home I was most comfortable and near my family. I would not want to take my children away from familiar family love. Who will be more supportive of you, than your own family, just where you are. Don't allow anyone to drive you away.