[Reneee]

I'm newly diagnosed with schizoaffective. I'm struggling with the diagnosis, because I do not hallucinate, but I am sure I have delusions. But my thought are so quick I cannot really focus on examples. I sort of want to know your experiences with delusional thoughts. What are their mild forms, what are extremes?
I feel like I am watched every time I go out to smoke a cigarette. It used to be my moment of relaxing but now I just worry.
I started thinking of scenarios where the police can come search my house and hit me. Or stop my husband in the car because he got me beer (not that he ever drinks driving, just the mere fact of having some booze in the car). I'm worried such thinking will only escalate.
On top of all physically something happened to me. I walk shuffling my feet. I feel so out of energy. Can my bad thoughts give me this underdog state of being?

[schizoaffective]

People who have schizoaffective disorder either have hallucinations or delusions or both.

I have had many delusions over the years (and still tend to have them).

I will give you 2 examples, one mild - the other extreme - which are part of my long list.

Mild:- I believed a section of the population was exercising mind reading and mind control over me.

Extreme:- I believed I had transformed into Lucifer and that my mission was to reconcile with God.

Whether delusions are mild or extreme, their effects can be equally devastating - and they are all manifestations of psychosis

Once I was able to recognise that they were delusions, I was able and willing to get treatment and medication to help deal with them.

The lack of energy and shuffling of feet would normally indicate you were experiencing a depressive episode, but your psychiatrist is the best person to advise you on all these questions. I am just sharing my own experience for your information.

I am sure everybody here wishes you well.

[Secretum]

I agree with schizoaffective that you may be depressed. I think the schizo part of your diagnosis may be off, however. Many of your delusions are more like obsessions. I suggest you look into OCD. OCD obsessions range from distressing anxiety to delusional. It is important to get the right diagnosis, because antipsychotics (treatment for schizoaffective) do not help OCD.

Here are some examples of delusions:
mild: thinking everyone believes I am stupid, ugly and worthless.

severe: thinking that I have had telepathic conversations with inanimate objects, and have to kill myself to become one with the universe.

I don't really know anything about this... but I thought I would just mention that, on an MMPI report that I received once it said I exhibited: "schizoid thinking". I have no idea what that meant & no one I've ever spoken with about it could give me an explanation either! Every professional I've ever seen has had a little bit different take on what's going on with me. So, personally, I don't put much stock in diagnoses. But then all I ever get offered are antidepressants anyway. So I guess, from that perspective, it doesn't matter...

[Atypical_Disaster]

Mild: thinking there are hidden cameras in my room so "they" can watch everything I do.

Severe: thinking I had a special mission from God to stop the holocaust and believing in a huge conspiracy trying to stop me and to keep said holocaust hidden from view of the general public.

[sandersdillion948]

I thought the government surrounded by house and wanted to kill me. I thought i was possessed by the devil, Ive thought ever person I dated was cheating on me. When I finally realize i am in a delusion it is to late, people leave and dont bother to ask why.

[Victoria'smom]

Mild:

someone broke into my house. They're coming to kill me and my son.
Pdoc, t, and my husband is forcing me to take meds to make me fat.

Medium: it would be really pretty picture if I stuck colored pencils in my husbands neck and put it in black and white.

Severe: (woke up thinking I was pregnant) I didn't sleep with my husband or a neighbor so it must be God's and I need to be with him. I'm atheist.

I can start my own tummy tuck. Then I'll pass out and they'll HAVE to finish it.

[SillyKitty]

I feel I should first say that I haven't been diagnosed as schizoaffective yet, but I feel it's coming. My sister is, and we have a lot of the same symptoms. Even the Sanity Score says I probably am and that's ON meds. I have had delusions, though. I can affect what people think and how they feel about those thoughts. That ghosts are observing me and whispering about me. (I don't believe in ghosts.) that my husband and pa-c are secretly meeting and scheming to have my daughter taken from me. (Though my husband did plant the seed for that one, I guess, since he said if I went off my meds, he'd leave and take her.) Thinking my pa-c is forging my signature on forms so she could have me committed whenever she wants. To help my husband of course.

[sandersdillion948]

I woke up this morning ok, but as I was sitting on my couch, I swear my dog was looking at someone else in the room, she was very frightened to go near the kitchen, she kept looking over there at thin air and almost was shaking... I got really cold and it was starting to scare me. This same dog, the day after my mother passed away, was hiding behind the shower curtain and wouldn't come out, the same thing, shaking and disoriented... Like she had just seen a ghost, this is around the same time I was sitting in my car in a parking lot and could very clearly smell my mothers scent for a while, long enough that I actually tried to figure out if I was was hallucinating or not, 3 or 4 min. I've heard voices telling me to kill my family and burn the house down, so bad that I packed my car up and frantically drove away, I didn't go back there for weeks. There is so much evil in that house still that I won't go back there very often, when I do it is in and out! Is all that a delusion too?