[browneyed_wreck]

I have been diagnosed with Psychosis Not Otherwise Specified for two years now. I have had mood episodes of mania and depression, and I have not had any period of time in the past 2-2.5 years of no psychotic symptoms. I have persistent delusions of people following me, tracking me, controlling my thoughts, having a microchip, things like that. I have been hearing voices for close on 3 years, persistently, getting better and worse for mood reasons. When I'm manic they will get intense and my delusions and hallucinations will sometimes switch to more grandeur and when I'm depressed they will get really negative, but when I'm fine (no intense mood) they can still spike very badly. A lot of the time I can conceal how difficult I'm struggling though and still have a half-normal life even though I am not very good with social interactions because I can't express everything, I am either flat or if I'm manic very energetic and bouncy. I've been seeing a psychiatrist for awhile now but they haven't gave me a diagnosis so I guess I'm just looking for an opinion of someone who actually has this disorder or to see if someone is having similar things that I am experiencing. Schizoaffective in my brain fits me best, but it would be nice to hear from other people.

[Blue_Bird]

Hi browneyed_wreck, I experience the same type of things and I'm diagnosed with Schizoaffective Bipolar Type. I hope you get some help

[browneyed_wreck]

Thank you for your opinion, it means a lot you read that big blob I put up there. I am seeing a psychiatrist currently and just started a new medication so I am going to see what will happen.

[avlady]

i am schitzoaffective and experience those things every day

[Victoria'smom]

I'm bipolar 1 with psychosis. I tend to know I'm delusional but it feels rational. So it's hard for me to shake it. I have different levels of understanding that there's no rational behind it through out the day but it always feels real. I'm able to carry on my day without much disturbance through out the day. The voices come when my eating disorder reals it's even head. I constantly feel there're bugs falling out of my hair. I'm on an anti psychotic, anti depressant, mood stabilizer and in therapy. If your not in therapy I suggest getting one so they're your safety from your thoughts.

im also schizoaffective bipolar type. right now i am in a depressive cycle and i hate it. suicidal and homicidal thoughts constantly. and the voices are getting louder. i refuse to believe i even have this disorder.

[pearlzandlace012]

In my opinion, it sounds like my symptoms of schizoaffective, except without the mania part. I have the depressive type, so I don't experience mania. Anyway, I'm not a doctor, but to me, it sounds like schizoaffective.

[browneyed_wreck]

Originally Posted by pearlzandlace012

In my opinion, it sounds like my symptoms of schizoaffective, except without the mania part. I have the depressive type, so I don't experience mania. Anyway, I'm not a doctor, but to me, it sounds like schizoaffective.

Yeah, I'm beginning to think so. I can't even write fully what I want to here because I believe people are tracking my movements on the internet, though that may not be all delusional. I am really psychotic today about thought transference and stuff, I just feel like I'm losing my mind. But I know probably by tomorrow morning I'll be back to my semi-psychotic state and I'll be dealing fine. Thanks though, everyone. I appreciate all the feedback.

Originally Posted by pearlzandlace012

In my opinion, it sounds like my symptoms of schizoaffective, except without the mania part. I have the depressive type, so I don't experience mania. Anyway, I'm not a doctor, but to me, it sounds like schizoaffective.

if youre talking to me, I just cycled out of mania into depression. I am aware I fit schizoaffective disorder symptoms, I still refuse to believe I have it.