[bluebutterfly26]

I am seeking help because i don't really know the nature of my trouble. I can't finance my visits to a psychiatrist. My problem begins a year and half ago when i think had an identity crisis,i was a kind of person who is never satisfied with himself and always thinking that there is something wrong with me. Then, i began doing things i personally don't agree with but i would do it and cry after it,i pushed myself to very uncomfortable situations, to do things i don't accept and forced myself to deal with it for a long time without ever stopping. Then i began to lose sense of my own self like losing sense of what i am doing, losing and gaining weight, etc.. it felt like i was doing a bunch of acts that are not connected in any way or any sense.
what is happening to me now is that i can't work because i have a weird feeling all the time that i am not comfortable with myself, my mind is always busy with something that i don't know. I feel like there is something i should do and because of that feeling i don't want to engage in conversations, i don't want to sleep or eat or have fun and my stomach hurts all the time. i don't concentrate with anything like even when watching a movie i feel like my mind is elsewhere.
Now i don't have any sense of time or days or myself like changes that happen to me, i don't have different moods, all i feel is anxiety that i am now used to to the extent of forgetting what it feels like to be normal.
I can't work because i can't focus on work or have the focus to maintain a minimum level of human communications at work since my mind is so busy.
I hope anyone could help me by any advice or opinion as i am losing control everyday.

[CANDC]

It seems like you are in a cycle that is self perpetuating. It sounds like you need meds to stabilize yourself and a professional diagnosis.

If you can't do that lifestyle changes could give you some relief.

Breathing exercise with a natural breath.
If you are feeling very anxious or angry or just want to calm down, you can try a breathing exercise that takes the attention away from the trigger of anxiety to a simple tool of counting breaths.

Find a comfortable position seated or la[/quote]ying down. Begin to relax your breathing. Silently count 1 on the inhale, and two on the exhale. Then silently count 3 on the inhale and 4 on the exhale. Continue up to 10 or until you lose the count then return to one. No judgement. I sometimes end up at 18 then smile and return to 1. The idea is to focus on the breath and the counting and not get sucked into the anxiety or anger trigger. Also works to quiet the mind.

I don't know hun, but by the fact that you are on here might suggest that you have issues, if you can, please consult a professional like a therapist to help you identify the problem. Luv