[Deershire]

I see my therapist tomorrow weekly. she never talks about what I want to talk about. I am beginning have recurring violent thoughts. I am trying to move out of my group home but AM worried that if I tell my therapist what's going on she will tell my psychiatrist and he will want to hospitalize me for wanting to act on my violent thoughts. which I do want to. if I am hospitalized it will be harder to move and I am NOT the only one waiting on this move so I can't be selfish. I have been having hallucinations which are getting worse. I'm not sure what I should do. everyone wants to talk about the move at therapy and even my caseworker afterwards but I don't want to. I'm just afraid of being hospitalized because I have been told that with two hospitalizations in the past 6 months under my belt I could possibly go to state hospital and I don't want that. I'm just so frustrated and upset to the point that I am getting chest pains and my cardiologist said it was anxiety attacks so now this is affecting me physically. I can't even sleep anymore.

[Crazy Hitch]

(((Deershire)))

I wanted to let you know this -

This sentence above all other sentences in this post really stands out for me -

"She never talks about what I want to talk about."

I really think that this is key to this entire situation.

And I do believe that it is your EVERY right to discuss this with her.

Therapy takes two.

It is a Professional Relationship.

Any Relationship; regarless of the fact that this is a Professional Relationship; requires two parties to be involved.

And you really SHOULD be given the opportunity to have an agenda; just as your therapist does.

As in - you have been struggling.

When we have hallucinations and things - it's really hard for us.

And I absolutely think you must address this.

You have every right to be heard.

Hang in there please.

[Victoria'smom]

We get those thoughts, as long as your impulse control is under control it should be taken in stride. You may need to go IP but that doesn't stop your plans.

[insilence]

focus on a violent thought, then use your intention..directed at your brain, visualize it as a dot in your brain, and like a muscle flex, pull the dot away from your brain..you will hear a click inside when it works. that neuron flow will get weaker, and you should have less intense thoughts. ive almost completely disconnected my random thought pathways and since 2012 have barely felt any odd emotions.

Yes definitely try to tell her.