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I've been reading here on the forum about transference (ET, specifically) though I never experienced it personally with a T.

I have, however, (since diagnoses) experienced euphoric infatuation with co-workers, virtual strangers, and even with a picture on a dating site. All of a sudden there is a powerfully magical aura of sorts that hits me like a ton o' bricks! I have never acted on it; instead am mortified by it (even though no one knows). It has lasted for MONTHS at a time.

Also, a couple times on a date, I have had brief moments with a man where that feeling overtook me (once while kissing, another while hugging). I recognize it and enjoy it for what it is in my case: Lovesick (accent on "sick.") But W O W--for the time that it's there, it's indescribable--takes your breath away! It's like feeling every scintilla of romantic love you've ever experienced all at once.

I'd been researching it and finally found an article on bp magazine, bphope.com. Stephanie Stephens' "Is this LOVE that I'm Feeling?" where she says social needs of those with MI are at the forefront of the Human Sexuality Committee of the Group for Advancement of Psychiatry. WHAT. A. SYMPTOM.

Anyone experienced anything like this or believe it may contribute to their ET?

I get feelings of being utterly connected to people. It's not sexual...I never feel or think about sex with these people....I just feel a connection. Like the science fiction show Sense8......I feel they are in my cluster and I'm a sensate. It's a rare occurrence for me but has happened. At the bottom of my signature is a video of a guy singing in an abandon building and I get that feeling about him. It's not sexual. He's from a TV series that used to be called scrotal Recall but is now called "Lovesick" so this conversation is fitting. He's now playing a young Einstein in the new TV series Genius about the life of Albert Einstein. He seems to be popping up everywhere.

[SkitsDoubt]

Thanks for sharing, Elsa. These experiences are not about physical love, either. It's like a school-girl crush X's a bizillion.

Part of my Acceptance of my illness(es) is acknowledging ANYTHING surrounding them that doesn't hurt. As I ponder these experiences, I reflect on my brain's NATURAL abilities and wonder at the possibilities the Universe (of science) has yet to discover. (I haven't taken as much as an aspirin in over two years and have never even tasted alcohol in my well over half a century of living).

That being said, this unpredictable euphoria is one of the reasons I live my life in near-isolation; that absolutely hurts. At least secluding myself allows for some measure of comfort in that regard; I am grateful there is relief--even though it comes at a price. Unrelenting pain is a fact of life in my world for years now; I enjoy those few elusive moments of "magic."

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Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I get feelings of being utterly connected to people. It's not sexual...I never feel or think about sex with these people....I just feel a connection. Like the science fiction show Sense8......I feel they are in my cluster and I'm a sensate. It's a rare occurrence for me but has happened. At the bottom of my signature is a video of a guy singing in an abandon building and I get that feeling about him. It's not sexual. He's from a TV series that used to be called scrotal Recall but is now called "Lovesick" so this conversation is fitting. He's now playing a young Einstein in the new TV series Genius about the life of Albert Einstein. He seems to be popping up everywhere.

BTW: THANX for mentioning the shows; I haven't seen them, but will look for 'em!

School girl crushes I can relate to. I used to have major crushes on a few people growing up....I think I know what you're talking about. I'm ok with it happening as I'd never act on it and it feels nice and is part of the beauty of living. im so sorry to hear you must live in such isolation. I do too....I want to get out and enjoy what the world has to offer but I'm not sure it's in the cards for me. National Geographic put out the Genius series and I recommend it. They call it a world wide event. They've only shown 2 episodes of it so far and it's very interesting to learn about how young Einstein developed into the man we all know of.