Schizoaffective religious

I had a good second therapy session, but I thought it was Jesus and Mary being the therapist. So by the end of the day, I'm exhausted and I can't sleep. She told me to practice radical acceptance, but the voice of the devil makes it difficult.

So I took my new lithium and now I probably won't be having any problems. Or at least less problems.

So far with the lithium the voices have quieted down a little. I don't have a state of unreality.
And I don't have trauma or intrusive thoughts.

I had good results with lithium. I'm schizoaffective, so my illness has strong psychosis and a nasty affective component. The lithium has calmed my unruly emotions so that I don't feel horrible all the time. Trying to find an AP med that will relax the psychosis, but so far I'm not having much success.

Back in February I thought I was God, not once but three times. Tried to smite the cops with a pillar of fire, tried to heal all the world's sick and wounded, and tried to blow up a large section of San Diego with the power of my mind. In all 3 cases the delusions of grandeur didn't last long, maybe 25 minutes at most, but I was sure whacked out while it was going on.

During my last psychosis I was having strong religious delusions. At one point I thought my husband was god and was controlling my actions and thoughts. I kept asking him "just admit it, are you God" and he'd reply "no, I'm just your husband and I love you". The delusions kept morphing but religion was always at the heart of it this last time. I'm sorry the devil is talking to you, that must be so difficult. I just can't imagine the fear. (((Hugs)))

The lithium calmed my unruly emotions too. I thought I had ptsd it was really schizoaffective disorder. My usual trauma crisis is gone but now I get in these sunken moods and I can't stop winking my right eye. It just closes. Sometimes, but not so often, I still hear the voice of the devil.

There is no fear involved, just negativity I don't want

I think with religious based delusions it's usually with people who were raised in a strict religious environment, right? I may be wrong.

I took an Ativan because the lithium isn't stopping me from hearing God's voice. I'm going to try radical acceptance.