[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I exercised and slept well. I taught from 6 in the morning though. I had five students until 9am. I was busy. Tonight,I have more students. I feel fine. I am wearing my glasses today because my eyes were tired. I am happy. I turned on the air conditioner and now it is cool inside.


It appears as if I might have to go to the centers in July. I don't mind. I am a bit bored from working from home. But, it will be tiring moving around here and there. Teaching is fun for me. I really enjoy my work. I like my job and am doing well again. Tomorrow, I have to attend a mock lesson to improve my teaching skills. It should be ok. My students like me for now. I feel happy about this.

I've decided to work while my French pal comes here. I need the money. Nobody is helping me so I need to be wise about money.

[Breaking Dawn]

I feel like my attitude has been influenced by something good. Maybe a combination of things. Anyway, at least today, I'm feeling better, seeing a nicer future, & gaining some confidence in myself. Hugs to everybody!

[SlumberKitty]

I've had a rough 5 to 7 days but my T called me last night and I feel a little better today. Taking Friday off of work as a vacation day but I really need it as a mental health day.

[Breaking Dawn]

It's always a journey. Nothing stays the same. When we open up our hearts, it's easier to see. So I open up my heart & let the sunshine in.

[WastingAsparagus]

Kind of had a bad week, but now I am going back up on one of my meds and I hope it helps me. I was feeling self-centered earlier in the week, too, which is not really like me. I feel like when I'm stuck in my own thoughts I am much more self-centered, though. It is not a good place to be.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. This morning though I was tired!! Really exhausted!! I slept during my break and feel fine now. I think my medication and the heat are getting to me. Otherwise, I feel fine now! I am happy.


My work is going well. I have to prepare a little more for my lessons. I got some advice which included to smile more and create a warm atmosphere for my students. Whatever!! Hostess teacher I will become!! So, the manager's advice made me laugh. Initially, I was wondering if he was serious. Smile more? I'm teaching, not posing for the camera! Anyways, what a life!! I still like my job a lot though. It is easier than most jobs. I also like teaching. I am happy about my job!!

Life is not bad!! Today's weather here was awful though- showers and too much heat.


I will be fine! I took my medication again and am doing well!

[Breaking Dawn]

I feel like I need an engine tuneup, or an overhaul. If only I could wake up.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. The advice I got from the manager is helping me perform as a teacher. I am happy. I took my medication this morning, then taught. Afterwards, I slept and woke up then prepared for tomorrow's lessons. I feel great. I went outside for a walk and up the stairs again.

Life is not bad. However, I am expected to show up at the teaching center starting in July. I hope I don't get sick!! We have to wear masks but still. I am not sure how safe it is.

I am doing well otherwise. I am relaxed so far.


I'm trying to practice to smile more!! lol, what a life!!

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs and love to all. I hope everyone has a good day today, with moments of joy or happiness

[Breaking Dawn]

The same to you, @Fuzzybear!

[bpforever1]

I have a lot of preparation work to do for my lessons now. I am busy working and sleeping. I still like my job. I feel great!

I am wearing my contacts and feel amazing. I walked a little outside and went up the stairs again. I feel fine. The weather is hot and humid here. I feel tired most of the time. I have the air conditioner on but it is still a bit hot.

I am trying to look my best. It has been effective. People are noticing me. I feel good about myself.

I wish I weren't so tired though. I am sleepy and have to sleep a lot. But, it is ok. I've been managing so far.


Life is not bad!

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by bpforever1

I have a lot of preparation work to do for my lessons now. I am busy working and sleeping. I still like my job. I feel great!

I am wearing my contacts and feel amazing. I walked a little outside and went up the stairs again. I feel fine. The weather is hot and humid here. I feel tired most of the time. I have the air conditioner on but it is still a bit hot.

I am trying to look my best. It has been effective. People are noticing me. I feel good about myself.

I wish I weren't so tired though. I am sleepy and have to sleep a lot. But, it is ok. I've been managing so far.


Life is not bad!

I see you say you're tired a lot of the time. Have you ever considered a stimulant like Nuvigil or Provigil? They can sometimes help with alertness during the day.

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I see you say you're tired a lot of the time. Have you ever considered a stimulant like Nuvigil or Provigil? They can sometimes help with alertness during the day.

@bpforever1 we had noticed the same thing... Have you ever gone to a sleep doctor or a neurologist about being so tired all the time? We ask because we are diagnosed with narcolepsy and we had been sleepy all the time and falling asleep all the time. We're on Adderall now (we tried Provigil first), and we are a lot more alert and awake during the day and are still able to sleep at night.

[bpforever1]

Thank you for your concern. I sleep about 11 hours a day. I try not to drink too much coffee and drink about 1 cup a day. Coffee is very stimulating for me and makes me nervous. I can try to drink more coffee but don't want the anxiety. I used to drink 2-3 cups of coffee per day. But, it was affecting my work. I was told I speak too fast and act nervous while caffeinated. Thus, I don't drink too much of it anymore. It does keep me awake also. I am sleepy in the mornings because I take my medication in the mornings also. I could switch it to the evenings but don' t want to do so because I might forget to take it. As a result, I am sleepy in the mornings and take naps during the day. I feel fine now. I am not sleepy after napping. I don't sleep that much at night about 5 - 6 hours because of my schedule.


This morning I woke up at 4:45 am and had students from 6 am onward. Then, I had a break from 9am. I restart at 7pm again to teach more students. I initially did not like this schedule but like it now because I can nap during the day. I am doing fine.

Tomorrow, I have to wake up at 5:45 am . I have students from 7am onward.


I will be fine. I know I complain about being sleepy but it is not that bad. I am happy!!

Life is grand!

[Breaking Dawn]

Well, I seem to be having a very interesting morning. That's probably a good thing.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well. I'm coming to the realization that I may never be able to support myself again. I'm trying to work on a music career and it's really stressing me. Not the actual music making but the promotion details and heart break that come with it. My voices are bad. They normally hum melodies and I don't notice them too much. But now because I am so stressed out, they are saying nonsense words to me. Over and over. Very loud too. I can never work again. I can't deal with the pressure. And I'm very depressed. My inner critic is beating me up terribly. I'm going to try to listen to some positive affirmations to drown out the voices. Wish me well. Thanks in advance and good wishes to all here!

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm not doing well. I'm coming to the realization that I may never be able to support myself again. I'm trying to work on a music career and it's really stressing me. Not the actual music making but the promotion details and heart break that come with it. My voices are bad. They normally hum melodies and I don't notice them too much. But now because I am so stressed out, they are saying nonsense words to me. Over and over. Very loud too. I can never work again. I can't deal with the pressure. And I'm very depressed. My inner critic is beating me up terribly. I'm going to try to listen to some positive affirmations to drown out the voices. Wish me well. Thanks in advance and good wishes to all here!

I totally empathize with music promotion being very difficult.

Can you listen to music to drown out the negative voices?

Sometimes listening to music (loud) helps me. It depends on the mood you're in. But if I put on like Jimi Hendrix or something it will help me get out of my head. Music has that power.

Sorry you're feeling bad.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I totally empathize with music promotion being very difficult.

Can you listen to music to drown out the negative voices?

Sometimes listening to music (loud) helps me. It depends on the mood you're in. But if I put on like Jimi Hendrix or something it will help me get out of my head. Music has that power.

Sorry you're feeling bad.

Some times music helps me. I have to be in the mood to listen to it. I get so emotional with music though. And sometimes it depresses me. I find listening to audio books and feel good tv help. And I like positive self-talk audios. Thank you so much for the support.

[Breaking Dawn]

Lots of hugs & love to you @Deilla!!

[bpforever1]

I am feeling really stressed out! I have too much work to do for preparing for my lessons. I am overwhelmed and feel really out of it! The people I'm working with keep asking me to do favors for them too. I don't think I should say yes anymore. I'm tired and exhausted!! I don't feel right!! I will need to teach my last lesson tonight and sleep. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow!!