[NOS-NOS]

I'm doing ok, transitioned to a new antipsychotic, Latuda. Only side effect, if any is a mild anxiety leading to moderate insomnia. My delusional symptoms aren't there anymore.

[Deilla]

I'm having a little difficulty this morning. Maybe some more reading of Tony Robins' book will help.

[Breaking Dawn]

I seem to be doing pretty good. I was able to accomplish two small goals that mean a lot to me & I feel happy & relieved.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing great! I walked outside although it is hot and humid. I also walked up the stairs. I am feeling fine these days. My prep work is going well. It was really slow at first but now is going faster. I sleep a lot still though. I like sleeping. I have been isolating myself and staying at home. I work online so have some contact with others. I am happy. I try to keep a routine. I think it is helping. I take my medication in the morning. Then, I put on my makeup. Afterwards, I start working online. I have breaks during the day which really help. I don't feel too stressed. I feel great!

Also, nobody has been complaining about me so far. I am happy about this. I will get paid at the end of the month and will buy my books for the real estate exam. I want to take it in two years. I like my current job although there are no benefits. It is just a job but I am grateful for it. I can pay my bills and eat what I want. I am satisfied.

I am healthy too. I don't drink nor smoke. I eat some what healthy too. This helps a lot. I sleep well too. Exercising has helped me to gain more stamina. Before, I was really tired all of the time. Now, I feel more invigorated.

My only vice is I like a man who is far away. He may come to visit me. I am not sure he can due to covid-19 though. May be later in the year, he will come.

[Deilla]

I am doing well. I feel excited about a couple of projects I'm working on. Today will be mainly relaxation. I plan to read some motivational books. I might order something nice to eat. I deserve a treat. I want a burger in a lettuce wrap. We'll see how the day goes. Hope everyone is well!

[bpforever1]

I am really exhausted but had two days off from work. I slept the entire time almost. I feel better but have to work again tomorrow. I am doing ok again. There is nothing like lounging around in a nightgown and just being myself without any interruptions. I will go out tomorrow and walk again. But, these last two days have been wonderful. I like resting. I feel grateful that I am independent and free. But, I need to work and continue working. I hope to buy my books next week. I will see if I can read them first. I am happy overall with my life now. I am staying away from trouble by focusing on work and myself. I have been taking my medication in the mornings. Life is ok!

[Breaking Dawn]

Today is going pretty good so far. I hope to accomplish some small goals before the day is done.

[WastingAsparagus]

I am doing like crap lately. I need to quit graduate school I think. I just switched to a new antipsychotic, though, so maybe that'll help.

[Breaking Dawn]

I got a little bit done. Something is better than nothing, as they say.

[Deilla]

I had a busy day. Unfortunately, I got really sad this evening. I felt lonely. But I ended up reading in bed with my cats. That helped a lot. Now I'm just trying to get tired for bed.

[bpforever1]

I taught in the morning. Then, I went out to pay the bills and shop for food. It took me four hours to do this. I was exhausted afterwards then slept for 15 minutes. I feel fine now. I am happy. Life has its ups and downs but right now I am on a upward trend. I cleaned my apartment this past weekend. I also washed my clothes. I then woke up early today to teach. I took my medication then taught. I am now going to do my night shift and teach again. I feel fine. Life could not be better. I am focusing primarily on taking care of myself and working. I feel great at times. I look fine too. I put on my contacts and my makeup. I am wearing decent clothes. I thank my parents for their help to help me get back on my feet. Now, it is time to become independent and save some money. I bought my books today and will read them. They're not as hard as I thought but the material or subject is not easy because I have no knowledge of real estate yet. It will become easier as I read more books and do more problems. I am happy!! Hopefully, everybody here is hanging in there or doing ok!! Just take it one day at a time and don't sweat it!

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @bpforever1! That was great! - I am doing fine right now.

[Deilla]

I am doing well. I'm focused on my writing project. I hope to have my eBook published next month. Hopefully things go well. It will be a lot of work.

[Breaking Dawn]

Today feels kind of weird. I'm not sure what to do, except for one little goal/plan I have. I really hope I at least do that.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. I cleaned my apartment and am washing my laundry now. I was really tired from this past week and slept most of the morning although I woke up to do some prep work, then went back to sleep after finishing. I am doing fine. Boy, it is hot here!! I have not gone outside but the heat from the windows is searing hot. I will go out tomorrow to shop for food again. I finally will be over 20 hours a week next month for teaching. I am exhausted though from this past week and need to focus just on work to survive. I will be ok as long as I take my medication and do some self-care. I am ok but not ecstatic because I am tired. I have not really exercised lately but will tomorrow because I need to walk to the store and back. I will try to fit in studying for my exam a little by little. I have two years but time flies when one is busy. I am doing really well and am grateful. I thank my family and my company for hiring me. I am going to be ok. Life is doable but it takes a lot out of me.

[Deilla]

I'm a little irritated. But I will deep breathe and try to focus on something good.

[bpforever1]

I got more students and am over 20 hours a week now for working. It took me three hours to prep for five lessons today. I'm tired. I was asked to implement some new teaching methods also into my lessons. I have to think about how I am going to do this also. I feel ok. It is hot here and the number of infected cases is rising. I stay inside most of the time now. Some weird man wanted to meet me but I turned him down. He kept bothering me so I had to block him. I don't understand people like this who know that it is dangerous to meet others now but still do. I am doing fine and am staying out of the heat. I am feeling a bit stir crazy but will be ok. I am just focusing on my work and taking care of myself. It is hard enough for me to do. I am tired most of the time but will survive. I want to exercise more but am too lazy for now. It is so hot that I feel the heat from the windows. I am cool inside with a fan and air conditioner. I feel a bit sick from eating too many ice cream bars too. I went nuts and bought mint ice cream bars, cookie n' cream ice cream bars, and ice cream chocolate cones. I feel sick now because of eating too many of them. hahahaha. Oh well!! I will scale back on eating them but it tastes so good in the heat!! Anyways, I am still taking my medication and dong well. I have to go to the doctor in two weeks to get refills. I think the medication is helping me tremendously. My judgment is not too impaired and I am hanging in there!

[Deilla]

I am doing fine this morning. I'm taking my cat to the vet. I'll drop her off curbside and then pick her up later in the day. Hopefully she checks out fine. Maybe she is just a talker and not really ill.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm working very hard, mentally.
I'm experiencing something very challenging. I know I will be ok, & I am periodically.

[WastingAsparagus]

I am doing well today. Feel pretty good. Back on Zyprexa, so that's good, and it helps me a lot!

[Deilla]

I am tired this morning. Just trying to wait for the sun to come up. I might get more sleep later in the day. My cat is on my side of the bed sleeping like a baby. I hate to wake her up.

[bpforever1]

I cleaned my apartment although I was tired. I also am washing my laundry. I feel ok but this last week was exhausting! I take my medication daily. I am doing ok but feel tired. I have to go out tomorrow to buy food. I hate going out because of the pandemic. But, I need to eat. So, off I go!!

[NOS-NOS]

Delusions are now nil. Have been for a week or two. The Latuda is really working. No mania and knock on wood no depression outside of the normal human range due to environmental factors and stresses. I don't know what else to say but I feel kinda normal and like I'm an integrated persona. I felt fragmented for most of my life. It's not something I'm used to, this sanity. But it feels pretty darn good.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing all that well. I feel sad. I'm not sure what to do about it. Everything feels like a waste of time. I'm not happy with any of my finished products. I'm very self-critical.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, @Deilla! Remember, when we criticize ourselves, it's often because others have criticized us a lot, & we do it for them when they're not around. Hard to stop, I know. Hugs & love to you!!