[tarabug922]

so last night i went to bed and as soon as my head hit the pillow it started. My hands were forced behind my back, my clothes were ripped off, I could smell the dog, hear it panting at my head growling. I could feel the guy beating me with a whip and raping me over and over. My heart rate was soaring, i was crying nose running. hours after it stopped and i got the courage to get up and turn on the lights i realized it never really happened. my clothes were intact, everybody in the house was asleep and the doors were locked. If this isn't a hallucination what they heck is it? It's becoming more common for me and i don't like it one bit. What do I tell my psych?

[deliquesce]

hi sweetie,
i'm just wondering if you've had any traumas (related or not) in the past? because these types of experiences are very common also for people who have PTSD. i wonder if you can tell your psych in just the same way you've told us here. she/he will be able to help you through it .

[tarabug922]

Yeah, I have had trauma's in the past. I was raped in college eleven years ago and have had serious physical/sexual abuse growing up. but I've worked on that in therapy extensively. I don't feel like it bothers me anymore. I guess it obviously does eh?

Tara