[KUREHA]

I think my psychologists office might be bugged.
I noticed the chairs have been moved around - there isn't much space in her office, so it's for a reason and I think the reason is that.
I think it could be the cleaner - obviously no one is going to expect them of doing it.

I want to tell my psychologist, so we can both check - but I'm not sure she's going to be into doing that.

I'm going to tell her - but I'm not sure she'll be ok with us checking, anyones psychologist been cool with looking?

[pegasus]

(((((((( KUREHA ))))))))

I think it would be good for you to share this fear with your psychologist. I'm sure she will gladly answer any questions and will set your mind at rest. Don't forget that the chairs do tend to get moved around depending on how many people your T sees. I think she will reassure you that there is nothing sinister going on.

[spiritual_emergency]

Just a few thoughts, Kureha...

It seems to me that a psychologist's office could be a place of vulnerability because (theoretically, at least) it's a place where we share all our secrets. Quite often, some of those secrets have to do with things we don't feel good about in regard to ourselves. It's not unusual to encounter shame, blame, lack of self-worth, fear, etc. in the sort of discussions that can come up in a psychologist's office. Because these are painful or frightening things we are sharing about our selves, they're not the sort of things we want the rest of the world knowing about us -- that's why we try to find private places where we can share them.

Do you think it might be possible that the reason you feel the "someone/the world might be watching" is because you are sharing some of these vulnerable secrets about yourself in that space? Or maybe you want to share those things but you need to be sure it's a safe place before you can do so.

I want to tell my psychologist, so we can both check - but I'm not sure she's going to be into doing that.

If you feel comfortable doing so, I think you should share it. I even think it could be fun to explore the room together and check for bugs and wires. The only difficulty I foresee is where do you draw the line? For example, do you check the underside of the chairs but stop short of ripping out the lining? Do you check the air conditioning duct but say no to crawling through the entire ducting system?

Maybe something else to think about might be... what would make you feel safe when you're talking with your psychologist in their office? Would you feel more comfortable to write things down rather than speaking them out loud? Would it feel safer to you if you were sitting next to your psychologist as opposed to across from her? Would you feel safer if you could bring a family member or friend with you sometimes? What makes you feel safe?

All of these things could be ideas you and your psychologist could talk about. They're also things that other people might talk about, think about, or have shared with her before.

I hope it goes well for you.

~ Namaste

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[KUREHA]

Thanks for the replies

It's just, I can't really see anyone moving the chairs, it's 2 chairs that have swapped places and they are pretty big and the room is quite small and it would be really awkward to do that, so there has to be a good reason.

I did feel safe there, because I knew no one was watching then, but I'm pretty sure that the room is bugged now.

I will tell her - I see what you mean about how far to go with checking. I think it's just the cleaner though that's put them there, so they should be easy to find.

Thanks for the ideas

[KUREHA]

I got to check

Didn't find anything, but 2 places I'm not sure about though.

My psychologist tried to help me think through it and slow down my thinking - so that kind of helped as well.

[billieJ]

Good for You, Kureha! You checked and you have insight into where to draw the line. Bless you, girl.

[KUREHA]

Thanks

Although I know why it happened now.