[WikidPissah]

I know, I know...if I stop taking them again I'll end up back in the hospital. But darn it all I hate them! I want to think clearly. I don't want to be mentally ill. I want just to be normal. I'm sick of people looking at me like I'm going to break. I keep thinking if I back off the haldol, just a little things might be clearer. I might be a better wife and mother. Freaking pills...I really hate them.

[SpottedOwl]

(((Eileen)))

Doctors always say that 'if you stop meds, you'll end up back in the hospital'. But, every body is different, and you know what is best for you.

Can you talk to your doctor about maybe lowering the dose a little bit? It does not have to be an all or nothing, but maybe your body will do just fine with a slightly lower dose?

IF you ever do decide to quit taking medication, please talk to your doctor about slowly lowering your dose. If you just quit cold-turkey, it can cause some nasty side-effects.

I can so understand where you are coming from, I hate mine too, I wish I could flush them all down the toilet.

I know what would happen though.

I would become ill I will upset/hurt my family as the medication keeps me on an even keel.

Talk to your Dr perhaps a little med adjustment may help, as owl said going cold turkey is the worst thing you can do.

[dook947]

i totally understand wanting to scrap the meds...i feel that way too but i'm told by those who love me that i need them...and i guess to some extent i agree...but man it still sucks to take them every day...you're definitely not alone in this. peace

[sadden]

Eileen2010-thank you for expressing your frustrations. I have been out of sorts and as soon as I read your post I felt less alone and more "like" somebody else and less like the freakizoid I often feel like. I am sorry you are frustrated. I know I need my antipsychotics, but I know I don't like it. Betcha you ARE a good wife and mom-reaching out here pretty much proves it. Here's hoping a hug helps ((Eileen2010))

[WikidPissah]

thnx everyone I am not going to self-rx, I will stay on what I've been given, it's taken years to get the right cocktail, and I shouldn't go messing with it now. (mostly trying to convince myself)