[RachelB]

Hello, my name is Rachel. I am 23 years old.

Every since I was 17. I started seeing shadows at night. From 1- a party full. Usually this happens after I have fallen asleep, but haven't realized I have.

My grandma told my mom I was trying to sneak out, but really I was trying to find where these shadows went when I finally woken.

It's like a sleep walk. But I remember everything I'm doing, but can't stop myself because I don't realize it's not real.

As time goes by, these shadows start having voices. I can't understand them, but I hear them talking. Not to me, but to others.

Then as more time goes, they start having colors. I start seeing what they are wearing. Some have uniforms on. I start telling them to leave. I have even gotten up to put a note on my chain locked door telling them not to come in.

Sometimes it happens several times a week. And sometimes it doesn't happen for a few months.

Sometimes I am scared that the person next to me isn't my husband. So I will get up, put my clothes on and get back to bed. Or I will lay there as far on the bed as I can be, and just wait it out till I realize it's him.

I also have instances where I see eyes or white dots above me. While I'm trying to sleep. I get paralized. I start breathing REALLY fast. Last about a min, then it's gone. One time this happend, my hands were on my chest, my cat was on my chest. When the lights went away, I could breathe again. I woke, but I thought I was already awake, so it was like I was just blinking my eyes. Anyways, when I woke, my hands and cat were on my chest, just like it was when the terror happend. These terrors have only happend 2x.

One time when I was trying to fall asleep, I felt a big gust of wind in my ear, I also felt my hair go up. My mom told me that long ago, there was a woman murdered by a jealous husband in the comlex that I was living in at that time. I'm starting to wonder if she got a blow to the head.

What are these? I went to a doc and they gave me risperdol, it didn't work. But she didn't even diagnose me.

[kimmydawn]

it's good to have you here. i would suggest that you follow up with drs. i would start with a therapist in my area just to see what might be going on there.

i wish you so well. keep us updated!

kd

[RachelB]

Do you think it could be Schizophrenia? I thought it happened all the time. This only happens at night.

[kimmydawn]

rachel,

i'm sorry, i don't know much about schizophrenia. however, i'm with you. i think it would be on and off all of the time...not just at nite.

there has to be a reason that it's happening just at nite. i think that's the key and i think a good therapist would help you to open that door.

please consider it?

be safe!

kd

[CompGeek]

it could be schizophrenia but I agree that you should see a therapist. It may be something completely differemt...
Best Wishes,
-Jason

[BlueFaith]

Just wanted to say welcome to RachelB ((((((Hugz))))) I think talking to a good therapist is your best bet too. It could be a number of things that you are dealing with. Keep us all updated. Best of luck to you.

~MP~

[MacD]

Welcome to the Site....Please let us know of any ways we can be of support to you....
Grace

[Shadowsinsideme]

hi rachel,

welcome to the forums.

it sounds like you could have schizophrenia, from what you described, but you'll have to see a psychiatrist to get an actual diagnosis.

You'd also have to get medical causes ruled out. Such things like, thyroid problems, brain tumors, epilepsy, etc. can cause symptoms that look like schizophrenia.

Also, other mental conditions can cause hallucinations and such, like bipolar disorder and psychotic depression.

there's also the possibility of schizoaffective disorder, which is basically schizophrenia combined with depression or bipolar symptoms.

i hope you find lots of good information and support on this forum.

btw, my name is Becka. I'm 18. I was diagnosed with Schiz a little over a year ago. I've been having symptoms all my life--hearing voices, seeing things ( i also see shadows), paranoia, delusions, unorganized thoughts, etc.

-Becka

[maverick]

Hi Rachel. I agree with Becka, symptoms of psychosis could be a number of things. See a psychiatrist and get a diagnosis. Do you have big fluctuations in your emotional states?

Keep us posted!

[Lexicon78]

Have you been abused in the past? Sometimes if a person is abused nighttime can often be a hard time. Like me, I've been sexually assaulted several times and have discovered nighttime is worst for me because I see things that aren't there, hear men calling my name, and often become paranoid.