[MickG]

I hope a few of you reading along can help me with something. Are you working? Do you collect disability?

How did you manage to function within society with a diagnosis of schizophrenia?

I still experience "symptoms" as I am treatment resistant and my brother in law gave me his "sage" advice when, despite the fact that I had just come from hospital, he stated," You have to get it together." As he was annoyed that I called my sis for a little bit of help.

I have accomplished more in my life spiritually and otherwise and it still hurts knowing if any other member of my family knew my life for one day they could never bear it.

I exist in the rest...the quiet place God made. We disappear into nothingness but in some strange way we come to life again.

[MickG]

I thought I'd add something here...

I'm trying to find out how and why a society is operational while their children are being abducted, abused and killed. This should be the sort of thing that will paralyse us. We hear these stories on the news and are expected to get back to work...

I am a shaman. Not the certificate bearing kind made by man in a weekend sweatlodge thing. The one who actually goes into the Underworld kind.

I wish this shaman could enter the body of every one of those children in need and take the final torture for them.

No one, not one single being should have to forfeit a quiet and peaceful passing at the hands of some piece of *****. They will pay in the end...that is the shaman's gift to them. Evil will pay.

I have found my mind. The world has lost theirs.

[MickG]

I think I just figured out today why there is so much pressure on me to be "normal"...
...so much was expected of me.

My family is killing me...slowly...with ignorance. I love them but it is HARD.

[shichi]

Originally Posted by MickG

I hope a few of you reading along can help me with something. Are you working? Do you collect disability?

I'm currently working full-time.

How did you manage to function within society with a diagnosis of schizophrenia?

I have schizoaffective, so a slightly different DX but anyways - I don't know, to be honest. I try to view myself as myself, not as my diagnosis and that helps. I have had some weird reactions to medication but I'm hoping my latest AAP, ziprasidone, will continue to help keep me stable.

RE: the children. It's hard but sometimes you can't help them all. It's just too much work for one person. Being unstable will mean your efficiency to do your task decreases even further.

MicG....Gee I don't really no where to start,These are not your delusions coming forward It is awareness.As buddhist might explain you see with the universal mind the knowing that is all of us and our surroundings.The world is blind to this and can only see with the reactive mind.They are programmed to this reactive mind,this is how they are controlled.they are controlled by their choosing the trappings of the material world and not the freedom of the spirit and the universal mind.The first truth of enlightenment that we must except and have no effect on is life is never ending pain and suffering this is the first truth of life ...understanding with the universal mind frees us through transcendence knowing we can only do so much with in our lives and the rest are the trappings of this world which one day will also transcend and become part of our truth.'in time all things are as one"