[The Saint]

We all have a story that is beyond imagination.
My story is beyond treatment, beyond my family,beyond my Dr's both physical and mentally.I have but few good memories all of them blotted out by horrific deprivation,abuse,denial and neglect.I know that god has carried me through all of this but to what end ? My life has become completely unmanageable and not by my influence.I am continually abused both publicly and privately.I am tired and have thought about suicide almost everyday of my life.I use to pray for death every night.I was diagnosed with cancer 2 yrs ago and thought my prayers were answered.I asked my family not to push for my recovery or treatment.My wishes were denied even in death.I told Dr's I didn't want treatment and I was denied. I asked them to please stop they said you don't have a choice.I'm now left once again at the mercy , of our world to be torched and abused again with no hope in site.Should I abandon my family,Dr's,and few friends to wounder the streets to find my life or death......I don't know ? OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME FIND EITHER.

[sick]

why do you not have the right to refuse treatment. Here we have that right
I am sorry people are being so hurtful towards you because of your illness.
I know how that hurts. These people are so ignorant they are not worth feeling any emotion over okay. Try not to let them get to you as they are the ones that dont matter not you. I hope you continue to reach out here okay where you are amonst people who can understand and who won't judge you

[Gus1234U]

there is only one end in life,, we all know that,, if one can't get there, i believe it's because the lesson of this life has not been learned. isn't it time to begin to wonder how to live without all the wailing and flailing about, to start trying to find a way to accept calmly what life has brought your way? many people call it the path of Faith. it's not necessary for it to be an organized faith, there are as many paths as there are seekers, but surely no amount of work could be worse than just constantly failing to thrive. i so dearly hope that your world of despair is relieved by a decision to become a different person than the one who is suffering so much now. these words are spoken in all lovingkindness,,, Gus

[The Saint]

Originally Posted by Gus1234U

there is only one end in life,, we all know that,, if one can't get there, i believe it's because the lesson of this life has not been learned. isn't it time to begin to wonder how to live without all the wailing and flailing about, to start trying to find a way to accept calmly what life has brought your way? many people call it the path of Faith. it's not necessary for it to be an organized faith, there are as many paths as there are seekers, but surely no amount of work could be worse than just constantly failing to thrive. i so dearly hope that your world of despair is relieved by a decision to become a different person than the one who is suffering so much now. these words are spoken in all lovingkindness,,, Gus

Very well put Gus,I am trying.I do believe the lesson needs more understanding and I can except becoming a different person but I must keep the spirit and that I feel has been taken away.I can't live without spirit that's what hurts,that's what destroys.I'm starting to get glimpses of hope.Thank your quick response....
Peace Be with you brother

[kateelovespanda]

You can’t ever really know the meaning of your life… And you don’t need to… Just know that your life has a meaning… Every life has a meaning… whether it lasts one hundred years or one hundred seconds… .

[willow_wisp]

Originally Posted by The Saint

We all have a story that is beyond imagination.
My story is beyond treatment, beyond my family,beyond my Dr's both physical and mentally.I have but few good memories all of them blotted out by horrific deprivation,abuse,denial and neglect.I know that god has carried me through all of this but to what end ? My life has become completely unmanageable and not by my influence.I am continually abused both publicly and privately.I am tired and have thought about suicide almost everyday of my life.I use to pray for death every night.I was diagnosed with cancer 2 yrs ago and thought my prayers were answered.I asked my family not to push for my recovery or treatment.My wishes were denied even in death.I told Dr's I didn't want treatment and I was denied. I asked them to please stop they said you don't have a choice.I'm now left once again at the mercy , of our world to be torched and abused again with no hope in site.Should I abandon my family,Dr's,and few friends to wounder the streets to find my life or death......I don't know ? OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME FIND EITHER.

non duality

[RunningEagleRuns]

Id say join the club, but I don't have it as hard as you. Cuz i don't have cancer. Hope you get better.