[Twisti]

I will TRY to make this as short as possible. I quit taking all of my psych meds last year around may or so. Why? Because i felt better, and started thinking, now that i feel better, why take them...yeah stupid cycle i go through..anyway, last week I saw my old case manager and made an appt to see my old psychiatrist to get back on my meds because of my (schizophrenia like) symptoms getting so very severe. (my dx as of last week is bi-polar with psychotic features) Well yesterday i did NOT get to see the Dr. I saw the P.A. which is okay I guess, shes just 1 step down from the doc...however ive never liked her, she doesnt listen and doesnt seem to really give a crap about you....

She came into the room, asked a few questions, and when she didnt ask about my hallucinations, I told her that i was having them. Which she should remember because of seeing me last year...I mean she said she remembered me PLUS she had my records in her hand! I told her I know they will never stop, ive had them my whole life off and on, but id like for them to slow down, ease up...whatever...she asked me what they were like, what they said...I told her id rather not say...was scared if I told HER, shed send me to a hospital...PLUS i already told my case manager everything...exactly what they said to me and etc....so I told her to please look it up in my file as it was just a few days ago that it was all typed in...she gave me a dirty look and left the room.... She came back with Lamictal (sp?) and told me how to take the samples and told me to make a return appt on my way out and she left the room....just like that... I know I need a mood stablelizer...and ive taken Lamictal before and it made me feel better so that isnt my issue...my issue is she just shut me out like that and she didnt even bother to "think" to write me anything (she wrote for Ability and something else, cant remember right now last time) for my hallucinations and etc... Im so unstable right now I bawled like a baby as soon as I got to the car and was teary all the way home...Im really pissed off at her! What should I do? Im on Medicaid so im very limited on who i can see in this small texas town...grrrrrrrrr

Thanks for reading this novel

[costello]

I'm really sorry, Twisti. That's terrible. You deserve to be treated more kindly.

Do you have to see that P.A. again? Can your case manager attend med appointments with you?

[Twisti]

Yeah I do have to see her...nearly every visit is to see her...they are very busy and the actual doc only sees the new patients and the patients who are in need of being hospitalized (i think those are the only reasons) the case manager I will be seeing every two weeks for.....i cant remember what the class is called but ill be seeing her alot which is a good thing, she is VERY easy to talk to.

Thanks for your kindness by the way.

[costello]

I'm sorry, Twisti. I feel for you. It's sad that you have few or no other options. I've gone through the same frustration in seeking services for my son. I did finally find a therapist and pdoc in private practice, but it will cost a lot more. Also, we haven't been to see them yet - first appt with therapist is tomorrow; first with pdoc May 17 - so he may decide he doesn't like them.

I wish I had an answer for you. I don't think you have to be rich to get good - or even adequate - mental health services.

Take care.