[Twisti]

To make a long story short..I have many "issues" with bi-polar with phychotic tendincies being my major stuff and am still being dx'ed to see if THAT is the true dx or if its true Schizophrenia. Im looking for someone whos also living with this and can relate and help offer support for when im having a bad day and I have plenty of support in return...not saying my husband isnt there for me but theres only so much he "understands" about this.

Dont worry im no stalker, im a 38 yr old wife and mother of two kids who has tons of phy and mental issues lol...wait maybe that makes me sound scary lol... Thanks in advance.

[disguise123]

u can always use the private message function on here ?

[Twisti]

oh well yeah thats true lol

[bcuz]

Hi Twisti,

I don't know how much support I can be. I have chronic depression and many phys. problems which really exacerbate when I'm majorly depressed. I know how difficult it is to care for a family on "good days"and how it is nearly impossible to manage your family on "bad" days.
When my kids were young I apologized a lot to them for being so crabby; I guess after a while the apologies didn't mean much, I don't know.
I think it's wonderful you have an understanding husband, but your right, he can only understand to a certain degree. I think that's the hardest part, because most people really DON'T understand. There were days when I thought I was the worse mother in whole world.....I hope you don't feel that way.
Hopefully, when you receive the "correct" dx and, the right combo of meds/ therapy you won't have many bad days.
Take care,
-bcuz

[Twisti]

bcuz....pm'ing you.

[EmptyReflection]

Twisti,

I was diagnosed with bi-polar variant Schizoaffective Disorder back in '07. I've been on disability ever since. I feel I've already gone on at length about my wife on these boards, so I'll merely summarize by saying that she is a very stabilizing force in my life, but it still helps a great deal to have somewhere to go where there are others who share my condition.

Up until I found these boards, I felt empty and alone. True, I had a supportive spouse (which is wonderful, don't get me wrong), but I didn't have anyone who could directly relate to the particular challenges I faced daily. Most of my family write me off as either eccentric or a liar, no matter how well-meaning they may be. In dealing with society, it's been my experience that they would rather blow me off than even try to understand. Such is the world we live in, I suppose.