Auditory Hallucinations Came Back

The voices(auditory hallucinations) I hear because I am schizophrenic has come back to hurt my feelings and to disturb me. I could barely hear them in the last couple of months, but now they are back loud and clear. I thought the voices wouldn't cause too much of a disturbance in my life anymore, but I can't bare they are back to mess with me. I'm not very good with coping with the voices. They are very negative, mean, and are a cause for my anger. I can't concentrate or be productive. I want to read and learn, gain knowledge, but with the voices in the background, it makes doing anything of use almost impossible. I have to work ultra hard to concentrate and keep a positive attitude, and it's very tiring sometimes. I feel horrible. Why did God do this to me? I feel so angry, and am sorry for everything I've done wrong ever. What am I suppose to do or how am I suppose to be? I don't want to suffer.

I'm sorry that you are suffering greensky. I hear voices as well. I am currently working on my bachelor's degree and it can get difficult to read, do my assignments, and take tests. I'm not completely sure why God allows suffering. But I do turn to Him when it comes to my schoolwork and other areas of my life, and He does help.

I'm not sure what you are supposed to do. The one thing that I do is continue to take my medication. Sometimes I fight it and tell myself that I don't need medication. But the truth is that I really do. It keeps the voices minimal and stabilizes my moods. Others can manage the voices without medicine too. I think that it depends on the person and their individual coping strategies.

Have you seen a doctor about this?

Hi, greensky. I really sorry this is happening to you.

I looked back at your old posts, because I wasn't sure if you were taking medication or not. It seems like you have been taking medication and sleeping 20 hours per day. I couldn't tell if the medication was causing the excessive sleepiness or not.

Have you stopped your medications recently? Has something traumatic happened that might have made the voices louder?

I do see a doctor for schizophrenia. I don't know why the voices have come back, but I know the illness is unpredictable. The voices often tell me that God hates me and that I am Lucifer. I feel bad. There's no one to turn to, especially because God is against me. I feel bad.

I feel exactly how you feel a lot. It feels like God is against us, but he really isn't. I know that doesn't help much. My parents tell me that eventually life will get better. Good luck.

I've had thoughts like the lucifer thing - meds took it away for me. Could you talk to a professional?

Now,I'm no expert but my mom sounded just like you guys,so,I'm no guesser.I lived beside it for 30+years.My mom too thought she was bad,didn't know how/why.Just believed the Maker had no love for her,thought she was a bad soul.She was SURE she was not a good soul,no reason why..Alas,it was a lie,my Mom was as good as gold.Best person I ever met.Give you the shirt off her back,a bed when you have found dark times and a great cook.I miss that women every day of my life.Always will if I live to be a million years old.But I will see her again.Thank God.I can't wait because I KNOW she a good soul,so He know too cause He smarter than me,right?

She too heard the lieing voices that badmouthed my momma..But they liars.I try to tell her,make her see the truth.She loves,she have compassion in her heart,she love the weak,look after them.He not hate her,HE LOVE HER!..She look after HIS little ones.Nuture them raise them,her child or yours it not matter.It right,she do..period.Thats living.Living the right way,nothing to hate.No devil there.Love there...I've recieved it,I KNOW!..But logic is a hard thing to use for some with this.Logis is truth,TRUTH is Lithe light in the mind,the Light IS the maker,my opinion of course but hey,we discussin the logic seen and how that means its how HE sees it so I can say He sees it different,right?

So again,I'm going to lean on logic.PLEASE,just try to SEE the light and the truth,the logic in my opinion.If you can manage to apply,it could help.

The posters who think their the devil...Remember what HE said,"the Father of Lies"..remember.Well,he lieing to you,and you believe it.He convincing,I know but we told that,right?..Maybe that voice,that liar is the liar He warned you and me of.The master of the lie,he make it seem true?..he good at deception huh?..He use your own mind to trick you maybe?..Just maybe.

I know you 2 or 3 are NOT Lucifer and I can prove it.To me anyway.

First,if you were the devil,you wouldn't care.You would be a hater.Hate yourself,hate Life and the biggie....Hate God.You don't seem to hate God cause you feel sad about not being good to Him.As if he is your enemy.And you hate self for that.That not say you hate Him,it say you Love your daddy.Care what you do to Him..Do for Him and if He loves you or not.Lucifer not care if God loves Him,he hates GOD,right?...You Hate God?..Then how you Lucifer.Lucifer Love his enemies?..Hardly.

You all have LOVE in your heart.You good souls.You my brothers.Love yourself as I do.Love yourself as HE does.You his child.You his baby.He love all His babies.We know that.Its all around us.Do you have anything you love in your life that you did not create yourself?..Then there is the proof.He Loves you,he did give you some blessings,right?He not bless lucifer,right?Then why you have ones you get to love,that love you?..Can't buy it,must be from HIS hand,right?..See His love for you little one.Its there,ignore the liar as best you can.If you KNOW its a liar and all tht comes from its tongue is lies who you are dealing with.Fight him.Kill him.He strong but your daddy is on your side.Fight the liar,if he gets ahead,Run to help.to fight him,on your makers behalf.He convince you your team mate is your enemy.Not true.



I know its not easy,believe me,but only the good hearted and those who Love God can get snagged by this "voice".The enemies don't care anyway.If he tell his own that they are lucifer,they shrug and say "so,good,I'm glad,screw gods approval"...You see?...I hope.I wish.I hear He sometimes makes the blind see again.I hope so.Hate to lose good souls tht we love to the depths of this garbage bin made for the ones that hate HIM.

Good Luck.Be pulling for you from the other side.We want ya back.........And DON"T QUIT YOUR MEDS.IT ALWAYS MAKES IT WORSE!

I believe I am Lucifer. They told me Lucifer changed. He got in trouble, and now he's changed. Well, here I am...am believing I was Lucifer. I feel bad. He realized his mistakes and repented.... and sometimes.... I hate to say it.... I hate God because I'm experiencing this. I hate having been Lucifer even more.